The Way in His plans

Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.

He is the Way so He knows the best available option. Ask! Seek!

I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.

Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.

Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.

Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.

He said GO, and we WENT. Traveling with my girls starting Covid season, trusting Jesus. We all know He is faithful. Believing Psalm 91 promises all the way.

Be or not to bee

Bee lives 14 to 28 days.

A bee lives but a few days and visits daily a total of 5,000 flowers to pollinate them. What an impact this little faithful worker leaves. In such a short life this little bug makes it possible for many flowers, fruits, and vegetables to fulfill their purpose. The bee is not selfless in the act of pollinating all these flowers. These bees have in mind a bee hive to feed and help maintain.

The battle to keep the faith is a strong one. The idea that we need one another to fulfill the purpose God gave us on this earth should not be a shock. Bees need each other to build the amazing beehives they construct. The Kingdom of God is not just to have a nice time together but to practice righteousness, peace, and joy in Jesus Christ. Why would you need righteousness when you reach heaven? It all starts here on this side of eternity. The Lord molds our character to become more and more like His son Jesus. The day you are judge, you will be judge for your actions and your deeds. Are you heading in the right direction?

I loved a movie called Gladiator when the main actor quoted: “what we do in life, echoes in eternity.” Yes how right he is in what he is saying. For everything that we do, think, and say has a way to impact the life we live and the legacy we leave for our next generations.

My prayer for us today is…

May we choose to be as selfless and as a willing servant for all who need our encouragement or our help. May we submit to love one another as much as we love ourselves. May we learn to love who’s we are in order to love others the way they deserve. May we choose the will of our Heavenly Father above our own always. May we have an impact on souls as the bee does with such a little lifespan. In Jesus name. Amen.

WORDS that build UP

Affirmation is a powerful tool.

Want a better marriage?

Want a better relationship with your children?

Want a better relationship with people?

Love is the key to everyones hearts.

I only wish someone would have told me sooner the power of words in a child’s life. I am just so thankful I know now.

My marriage is taking a much needed “facelift” thanks to the power of words. Daily encouragement through words of affirmation is so powerful.

Lets all use it… be intentional!

Relationship and homeschooling

Relationship with Jesus is taking a road of friendship and joy. The way I see this is that when you least expected you are hanging out with Abba and don’t even notice it. I can see beyond my self sufficiency. I can see how much I need Abba now. I need Him to breath, I need Him to think, I need Him to work, I need Him to love, I need Him to laugh, and I also need Him to enjoy everyday.

My kids and I notice Him in everything around us now. We can see Him in a moving car. We can see Him in a homeless person. We can see Him in a sunset or a starry night. We are thanking Him for every opportunity we get to admire His creativity. We are understanding that beyond a friendship with Him is chaos and emptiness. We are understanding that letting go of Abba’s hand means to conform to a world that does not know how to love. Abba is love. We need His love and daily dosage of guidance to live.

I am thankful for every step He has turn in my ways through my life to make me start our homeschool process. Sometimes I just don’t know why He would ask this of me. Many times I am so thankful for the opportunity to see my kids flourish into very capable young girls. I get to teach them how to not only study but be part of a team daily to get stuff done.

I am thankful Abba has been transforming my mind for a long time now to be able to see the blessing in the chaos. I can see how at the end of the day He is the one to organize my schedule perfectly and make me feel as a Super mom. I know that I could never do this without my beautiful loving kids. They are the light of our house. They teach me joy daily. I know, I sure need it, hey! Who does not? Thank You Jesus. 💕

If we let go and let God take the reigns, life becomes fun. Even when you could never imagine yourself having the strength or the patience God is the one to do it all. I know that without Abba I am nothing. He is my patience, He is my reminder, He is my counselor, He is my helper, and so much more.

Pray with me, please…

Abba let me seek you every day with all my heart. Transform my ways to your ways.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Worthy is the blood of the lamb

Good Friday should be a day of remembering what our God did for us in Egypt with the blood of a lamb on door posts. How death passed-over all the Israelites homes only killing the first borns of the Egyptians. Just an example of what was to come through the blood of Jesus.

The blood of the lamb was the start of freedom from slavery in Egypt for the Israelites. So many centuries ago and we are still debating about it. We are honored to know that the God of miracles, signs, and wonders has always wanted to let us know, how much He loves His people. God was willing to kill innocent children to let His people GO. A God of justice and righteousness was willing to shed blood for every soul that He would call His people.

To this day I can see this God that seeks my attention and affection every hour of every day. My soul feels the tug to seek Him and praise Him as well. The love that He gives me to remain in overflow can only come from that secret place that I seek with all my heart. My heart is expectant always!

What about yours?

Matthew 7:7 Seek and you will find…

Intimate letter to Abba

Abba I am here writing to You to tell you how impressed we are by your masterpiece. To look at your dusk and to look at you dawn, and its majestic colors just fills our hearts with joy. The time spent in prayer, the time spent in reading your word has transformed our thinking. My family is blessed to know you and to seek you daily. Can’t wait to see the fruits in everyone’s intimate relationship with you.

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This season I started to notice how my heart is seeking to love you and to thank you for everything you do daily for our family and our walk of faith. Abba you picked me before the world was created. Lord you knew me from the time I was being formed in my mother’s wound. Even when my mother and my father considered terminating my life you had called me and had a wonderful plan for my life (Isaiah 49:1).

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You say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and even before I knew who my Father is, You covered me under your wings (Isaiah 54:17). My mother and my father had to cancel the abortion because You my Abba had better plans for your servant (Psalm 27:10). Thank you, Father that I now see what is to have a thankful heart. I feel in my inner most being to thank you every day that no matter what my parents did, I was loved by my Father in heaven way before I was conceived (Isaiah 54:8). Now at your feet meditating on your word and your truth I can see all the times you chose a better life for me. Thank you Abba for the truth revealed at your feet (Isaiah 48:17).

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I moved to Las Vegas, Nevada when I was young and stupid and made many poor choices and you still covered me under your wings (Psalm 91:1). I still see all the times you called me to align my life with your purpose for my life and I just was too blind to see beyond my self-pity. Thank you for bringing my life out of the pit of depression, anxiety, loneliness, and chaos (Psalm 103:4). Nobody knew how deeply hurt I was, my heart was so numb. I can see now how hurt people keep hurting others around them without even noticing it (Proverbs 17:22). I remember the day I left the front door open to my apartment, I lived next to the gate where everyone enters and leaves the community daily. I slept with that door open all night long and my purse was next to the front door. Nothing happened! Why? You Abba Father, You covered me and kept me safe (Proverbs 18:10 CJB). I remember the day “my dream guy” asked me to get married in a drive by church in Las Vegas and you placed in my heart’s understanding “this is not the time, the place, or the guy.” Abba I can see it now, you showed up every time I needed you, even in the worst choices I made, you were there to carry me back to your side (Isaiah 43:19). Deep down inside all I wanted was real love and acceptance that this world was unable to give me. I always seemed to know that I needed to pray and I did, even in my worst situations I prayed, I knew having you in my life was necessary. All that time praying without even knowing how to speak to you, you listened and you took care of me. First of all thank you for helping me find You so I could be healed and transformed through the love of family. I found it Abba, thank you because I found the love of my life, I found the family that filled every void I carried for so long, thank you Abba. I found the people that deserve all my time and energy to build them up to understand that they are loved, not by me alone, but by You. You are the Alpha and the Omega. You are omnipresent, omniscient, the God who heals, the God who gives peace that surpasses all earthly understanding, You are the Holy One, You are the creator, You are the ultimate creative genius on earth and in the heavens.

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Lord, I want to be your servant until my last breath. I wish to ask you before I go:

Did I helped woke up the souls that you needed to be awaken so the truth of your love and your ways would disperse across the world?

Was I your living walking testimony each and every day?

Did I do what you sent me to do in this time on earth?

Did I feed enough lives?

Please pray with me today,

Thank you, Father for a new day where I take a new breath and I am able to listen to your birds sing, I can see your butterflies, I can see your dawn, I can see your beautiful skies, I can see your care, your love for me and my family. Here I am Father, a new day awaits, may I be able to listen to your still voice, your servant awaits. Amen.

In Jesus name we pray.

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A girl’s miracle of love

My daughters and I have been sharing a lot of stories on testimonies happening all across the world through the humble willing hearts of children. They have been hearing continuous stories on wonders and miracles. One of my kids has even seen the power of prayer in my own life and the life of her father. We have been reading books on how to believe that the kingdom of God is near. I can recommend the book we have been reading for a while: “Here Comes Heaven.” Of authors Bill Johnson, Mike Seth, & Marilyn Seth.

Air conditioner testimony…

Our air conditioner would not let cold air out. For some reason we fixed it twice and it did not fix permanently, it would work maybe for a week or two and then stopped working. We did not have the budget to buy another air conditioner at the time so we have been sleeping with a fan for the past 6 months.

A month or so ago we started to pray as a family every night. Each and every person gets to say their petitions and we also read a little scripture. We also have a little notebook to place names and pray for the sick people we may know about. Three days ago I get the idea of praying for my kids with one specific purpose, that God uses them in a mighty way to bless other souls around them.

(This grows out of being thankful to have them in my life, miracles that God lend to us, to guide here on earth. Science said it was impossible, God said I am possible. Anything with God is possible. My heart is set in having my family and every person see what I see and feel what I feel serving Jesus Christ.)

My 5 year old with all authority told me last night: “Mom turn on your room A/C.” (I found this kind of strange because she knows it does not work.) I did decide to listen since she persisted. She asks me: “Mom were is the remote, were do I turn it on.” I explain to my husband what she just said and he just leaves what he was doing and goes outside and turns on the A/C electric switch. He does not question he just commits and acts on his daughter’s faith.

Our daughters get on the bed and the little one standing, just starts speaking to God saying: “Lord, thank You that the A/C is working. Lord, may this A/C get cold so my parents get to sleep as confortable as I do.”

We acted on her faith, not saying anything just following her lead by closing the windows, together in faith. Our little one was still on top of our bed hands up high going in circles praising the Lord for what He had already done. Our eldest just staring at her in awe of what she was doing and how we were all just moving and respecting her faith.

I had never seen her so sure of a prayer request. If we had a mind set on the things of this world, we could have never accepted what she was saying. We had already been praying for a new reality, open eyes, and ears to things above and not bellow, we were already willing to accept God’s reality not our worldly reality. This could not be reason or placed into logic.

I am so thankful of my daughters for their compassion toward us. I am so thankful for my youngest sincere humble heart, submitted to God for the love she has for her parents. Thanks to her yesterday we slept in A/C that was colder than ever before.

One of my favorite Pastors recently stated “that the person who seeks true friendship with God, lives daily testimonies at His feet.”

We should all pray without ceasing like Paul explains so we can see eyes and ears wide open to what God has in store for all those who choose to love Him.

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Its a challenge to forget what the world may say or how the world may judge. For me, I don’t really see the challenge because I have met the one I have to submit to every day. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

Most Christians I know can not and will never understand the challenge of pursuing a deep spiritual life surrounded by love ones that can’t see beyond your old life. I am walking in faith and praying each and every day that God gives them eyes to see and ears to hear.

I pray and bless each person and I consider and pray for my family daily. For most of them I know they are waiting for this part of my life to pass. The incredible thing is that this is here to stay. Sometimes when the Spirit moves us into a God appointment you are not thinking about others feelings or needs. Its hard because I still love them and they are a priority but above them comes God.

I hear my friend saying to me how he is waiting for the day he can see me again being the life of the party. I no longer want to party the way the world wants to party. I want to go to God’s “disco” church. Used to have a family member that called Church “God’s disco” to this day I find it funny and yet so true. I want to represent His truth.

His truth in my life today is…

A God life has changed my wants and needs completely. I am so thankful because I can see breakthrough in the life of so many through prayer and a loving message. I am driven to love, that is to love whoever God sets out to inject with His truth daily.

A life full of God is all we need to live complete.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭CSB

A year to learn true Love

Why Love?

It all started when I saw this verse in the bible. If I speak human or angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so that I can move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give away all my possessions, and if I give over my body in order to boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3) I had decided to ask for tongues in prayer because one of my religious leaders told me that: “if I did not speak in tongues than I did not get the baptism of the Holy Spirit.” As soon as I saw this verse telling me that I would be a noisy gong if I did not have love. I needed to now change my prayer immediately to know love. I have been seeking more and more God’s truth on His love and some of my experiences have been so beautiful, they can’t be placed into human words. I still don’t know how to speak in tongues. Now the most incredible thing about no desire for tongues is, the true desire that reigns in my heart, is to remain in His love. I can tell you from experience that it is a second by second decision. When you have lived with a deficit of the true meaning of love it is a transformation to act in it. The Spirit of God is in you when you decide to remain in His power, in His way to love, and in His sound mind at all times. (2 Timothy 1:7) Each and every individual that decides to know the love of God has to be submerge daily in the spirit of God.

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Oh my God, this past year has been a roller coaster ride. God was always setting me up to learn the fruits of the spirit all year long. He was so wonderful to plan out a prayer asking for community. Soon after that, a faithful servant asked me to accompany her to her bible study group. When I arrived, they were already studying since august the Fruits of the Spirit. It’s incredible how God’s spirit moves us all through his wonderful faith without knowing. I arrived just in time to learn in community the last 3 fruits of the spirits in the list. This group of God’s fearing women have taught me a lot about community, love, and service. The power of Love is so beautiful within this group of women. All have their own personal lives, but all are willing to come together and pray for the needs of others, even in the distance. This an amazing group that truly wishes to keep growing in their faith. I have been seeing how God has kept teaching me, to be myself around others. I used to never open up to anyone other than my closest family and my closest friends. I am so thankful to God for letting me know that even without knowing Christ that long, he still uses me to love and encourage others through the love he has poured into me. Within this time of learning in community and trying to remain as transparent as possible, God showed me how important it is to maintain one on one relationship with Him. The ability to bless others is only fruitful when we are full of His love, His presence, His knowledge, His desires, His understanding, and His grace. This only happens through deep prayer in intimacy with our father who is in heaven. The importance of that private prayer to grow and love without restraint is so necessary in these troubled times. I have been communicating my personal experiences about how I keep seeking God’s favor and love, for your information in case it happens to you, this makes many people uncomfortable. Within the personal relationship with God, I have received comforting truth revealed to my heart, and I am thankful to be able to share it with the people that God places in my heart to share it with.

The spirit of God calls us to die to the flesh. I started dying to myself this past year. The most incredible thing is that when I arrived at this bible study group, that was the name of the book dying to yourself. I started dying to self by reading the fruits of the spirits every day and praying to God to reveal all as truth to my heart. I know from personal experience that these fruits of the spirit are the key to living according to God’s desires. The most beautiful thing about God’s desires, is that they are compared to the best dream your parents had for your future while you were growing up. If you commit to living in His desires for your life you will live out the promises He has in store for you. I don’t know about you, but I want this for myself. It means to be faithful in prayer and knowing who our Father is.

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Before I decided to embark on this faith journey I thought I knew myself. I thought I had my life all figured out. I understood with my own understanding that if I had already seen Jesus garment and had an encounter with His burning fire in my baptism my faith was all figured out. Now I can see that the whole point of the journey in life is to grow each day stronger in our Love for God and other people, His truth, and our faith. When I started to learn all the fruits of the spirit, God confronted me and showed me that I did not know how to truly love, and how to be really confident in my own skin. The funny thing is that throughout seeking Jesus I kept knowing who I really was through God’s eyes. He revealed to me how empty of the important things I was. I thought I knew it all. I thought I had it all. I thought that having and acting in his gifts meant I had already understood what it was to be a child of God. The more I kept on reading his word and seeking His knowledge and wisdom I could see how much more of God we all need. This is a journey and it is not a competition. The journey should be as a family, building each other up, and knowing when to retreat from people’s lives to let them grow in faith with God.

 

Please pray with me today…

 

God, thank you, that we have the honor to share with one another our gifts, so we can help one another in reaching new levels of knowledge, wisdom and understanding in life.

 

Thank you, Abba, for all the abilities that make us capable of loving one another and edifying one another daily.

 

Thank you, Jesus, that you made us free to be who God meant for us to be. Never comparing ourselves or our faith to others.

 

Thank you for this day and being able to honor my promise to testify.

 

God bless you and may you open your heart to Jesus, so he can make His home inside of you today and always.

 

In Jesus name. Amen.

 

God loves you and so do I.

YOLO vs love…

Unity in prayer is so powerful, and we need it now more than ever.

God wants us praying for one another. Loving one another. Respecting one another. This is a very different perspective from the YOLO (you only live once) generation approach. This incredible change of mind comes from God’s love helping us daily to forget our wants and refocus on the needs of others. Daily deciding in prayer to tell God we want to do His will and not our own. Trust me everyone wants to do God’s will. There is love, security, peace, and riches (in glory) beyond your wildest dreams at His feet. Again, the awesome part of this way of life is that blessings will be abundant in your life, as soon as you place others before you. In the bible you will find in 1 John 4:11 “Dear friends, if God loved us in this way, we also must love one another. No one has ever seen God. If we love one another, God remains in us and his love is made complete in us.” If you want to live for God is all about loving our neighbor as we love ourselves. This is a challenge in this day and age where the era of social media tells us that we should have to be a certain way and meet some society standards to be acceptable. So, according to this way “we can only put our minds to work, to live according to these world’s expectations.” Well to be truthful, I don’t know about you, but that is exhausting.

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God has been so faithful that He made us his children (through the blood of Jesus), this way we would understand that we need to treat each other as brothers and sisters. Today a respectful family is supposed to be defined by representing love and understanding always making a bank of grace for each other’s faults. We are humans and we all make mistakes. Some people live a double life and others choose to be transparent. God wants from us to be able to walk our testimony daily. I have not hidden mine from the world. I once was lost and now I am found. I once was blind and now I see. When we decide to serve Jesus, He uses our weaknesses to boast in His power of transformation, through our daily change. This makes a lot of people uncomfortable, because you are representing His light, His love, His way. From my own perspective, I have seen that it is hard for many Christian to understand why God would give so much to a sinner, but not to them. This is the wrong perspective. We cannot see others and try to have their lives or their faith. The story of the lost son (Prodigal son) that came back, and the father rejoiced, but the older brother got upset that the brother was exalted for returning safe to His father. The brother could only see that  his brother wasted his inheritance and did all the wrong things with the money he waisted. The father could not see with his other son’s eyes because he could only rejoiced that he found his lost sheep. God does not see any difference between the nun and the prostitute. According to the kingdom of God and the love He has to share with us, it’s the same measure and importance for both. This is how scandalous grace can be. God will love the respectful parent with the best resume in the world, but he will also rejoice and love without measure the pedophile that decides to come back to His arms. Please do not treat some people nice and discard the other just because they don’t meet your standards of the way everyone should live. Did Jesus ask the prostitute washing his feet at a banquet with “someone important” to leave? No he did not! He enjoyed that she made others feel uncomfortable to show how God loves to make us love others in the uncomfortable  circumstances. In the moments we are doing what we would normally avoid, that is when His love, shines the most.

Please pray with me…

God,

I thank you for opening my spiritual eyes to see that your ways are not my ways. I thank you for renewing my mind to love you and others the way you love me. Thank you for your grace and your understanding. Thank you for giving me your wisdom daily.

In Jesus name, Amen.

 

God loves you, and so do I.