The Way in His plans

Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.

He is the Way so He knows the best available option. Ask! Seek!

I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.

Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.

Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.

Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.

He said GO, and we WENT. Traveling with my girls starting Covid season, trusting Jesus. We all know He is faithful. Believing Psalm 91 promises all the way.

God has the ONE for you

On December 25 2005 , I felt so depressed, so alone,and so tired from all the toxic relationships I had permitted myself to have for years. This day was a fork on the road, I felt it was enough of TOXIC and I decided to express my anger to God. I told God: “I deserved good people in my life since I was a good child.” I kept saying some really rough words to God in my anger and frustration. I was crying and really pleading to be heard.

That same night I wrote a friendly e-mail to five different people men and women on a “social media platform.” It was actually a Blogging/Messenger website. I saw their stories, blogs, pictures and decided to see who seem to walk towards love and family. It was decided, I needed new positive people in my life. Amazing enough, that same night, out of all the people I contacted, only one answered, MY NOW HUSBAND OF 13 years.

Something cool about this testimony is that my husband that same day did the same prayer in a very different way from His side of the world.

Through testimonies like this one Jesus can make it possible for you to experience this truth that sets us free from unbelief.

🙏Let me pray for you…

May the Lord open the way to meet that God fearing person in your life that will bring love, transformation, faith, hope, and peace. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

💞Jesus loves you and so do I.

Homeschooling

“…, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the Lord of hosts.” Zechariah‬ ‭4:6‬ ‭KJV‬‬
Its all God, I can’t do this without His grace. 💖

What a mission to work and mold our character as parents and as sons and daughters of God.
I live thanking Jesus for the day He woke me up to understand that homeschooling was possible. He used Michelle Marie and many other ladies to teach me what is to be brave and to choose your kids well being above commodity. In my case the reason for homeschooling came from violence at school. No, it was not bullying, it was not words. My girl got to my arms covered in purple bruises throughout all her body.

Yes we went for all the weight of the law to inflict the pain we wanted others to feel we where going through. Yet, Jesus set us free from desiring our own earthly corrupted justice and gave us a better moment of education and taught the other parents and their child what mark of LOVE and emotional support they where missing. God gave us all closure and also set us on a new journey called Homeschooling.

My priorities for a while where to get a title and a career in nursing. During this time while I was too busy following the vanity of life, others taught my kids: “How is not necessary to listen to your parents.” 💔 Yep, this happens! God was so good to permit a horrible affliction in my life, through my own bad choices to stir me in a new path to LOVE others and my family the right way. 💝

We can use our highs and lows to edify others. This is why I take my time to share a bit of our journey. May it be for your encouragement and to bless you. 💓

Dwelling = enter His rest

In the beginning Adam and Eve through sin seeking their own (earthly, limited) KNOWLEDGE broke the intimate relationship God wanted to have with all mankind. In the garden, before their sin, Adam and Eve lived in an intimate relationship with God, where He walked with them in the garden. This garden was created for all of us to have access to an intimate relationship with our Creator. Yet after sin came into the world, access to have intimacy with God was no longer available.

What would change this circumstances?

God made us with the purpose of relationship not to manipulate us or use us. God did not want to be an angry distant God. God wanted to remain close to you and to participate in our daily tasks and use our talents for His awesome plans on this earth. God wants us to learn how to love Him and learn also to love and serve one another.

This is where relationship with Jesus comes in. All religions ask you for works to be saved and have “peace.” Yet our true Creator decided to do all the work for us by sending His son to die for our sins (all of them, past and present) to clean us from our fallen world and invite us to connect with Him in intimacy. How? Well you just have to BELIEVE in Jesus Christ. When you decide to BELIEVE this makes you automatically a Child of God, a new creation the old things have gone and the new have come.

When you accept Jesus into your heart you decide to enter the relationship God always wanted you to have with Him. In this relationship He offers many blessings, yet it does come with many tests along the way. The good news is that Jesus died on the cross to bear the burdens of this world for you. In intimacy you can lay down your life for His purpose to be fulfilled and enter a rest that gives you peace in every circumstance.

Praying for you today…

May the blood of the Lamb of God silence the lies of this world today and everyday. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. 💝

☀️Jesus loves you and so do I.🌈

I was Derrailing

I have derailed from my work in the Lord and I did not even noticed. I am not willing to write about it and that is exactly why I will write about it. I will be following where the Lord is leading me. This is a new season and it is a choice to remain transparent. Transparency in my life has been a work in progress this year. Learning every day that life is a journey and not a destination. This helps with trusting and resting in God. Sometimes we want to reach certain goals to receive the praises of men. This is so wrong in so many ways! This is the world we have been educated in. Now Abba Father does not want us to be pleasing men, for as it says in His word “if we pleased men we should not be called His servants.”

I am understanding now to work only for Abba and not for men in this season of my life. Sometimes for Abba to set us free from certain mindsets, He takes His time to do so, so that the change will be permanent. At this point I want to rush his teaching and my ability to update and implement it in my life but I understand this is not the way. This is where I am again saying to myself: “life is a journey and not a destination.” Transformation takes time and that is ok. Rushing life’s lessons can just make you miss the most important parts of the lesson. So choosing to keep my calm while I am instructed and Abba brings restoration to my way of thinking.

Abba says to not rely on our own understanding and to acknowledge Him in all our ways so that He can direct our path. This is where I find myself. Telling Abba I can’t do this without you, help me not to ever remain in disobedience. I want to do everything for the Lord and not unto man. So now I am heading back on track by only seeking God’s acceptance and not men’s praises.

Pray with me today…

Abba thank you for your Holy Spirit that is our teacher. Thank you for bringing me back on track by seeking only your acceptance and your praises.

Abba loves you and so do I.

Relationship and homeschooling

Relationship with Jesus is taking a road of friendship and joy. The way I see this is that when you least expected you are hanging out with Abba and don’t even notice it. I can see beyond my self sufficiency. I can see how much I need Abba now. I need Him to breath, I need Him to think, I need Him to work, I need Him to love, I need Him to laugh, and I also need Him to enjoy everyday.

My kids and I notice Him in everything around us now. We can see Him in a moving car. We can see Him in a homeless person. We can see Him in a sunset or a starry night. We are thanking Him for every opportunity we get to admire His creativity. We are understanding that beyond a friendship with Him is chaos and emptiness. We are understanding that letting go of Abba’s hand means to conform to a world that does not know how to love. Abba is love. We need His love and daily dosage of guidance to live.

I am thankful for every step He has turn in my ways through my life to make me start our homeschool process. Sometimes I just don’t know why He would ask this of me. Many times I am so thankful for the opportunity to see my kids flourish into very capable young girls. I get to teach them how to not only study but be part of a team daily to get stuff done.

I am thankful Abba has been transforming my mind for a long time now to be able to see the blessing in the chaos. I can see how at the end of the day He is the one to organize my schedule perfectly and make me feel as a Super mom. I know that I could never do this without my beautiful loving kids. They are the light of our house. They teach me joy daily. I know, I sure need it, hey! Who does not? Thank You Jesus. 💕

If we let go and let God take the reigns, life becomes fun. Even when you could never imagine yourself having the strength or the patience God is the one to do it all. I know that without Abba I am nothing. He is my patience, He is my reminder, He is my counselor, He is my helper, and so much more.

Pray with me, please…

Abba let me seek you every day with all my heart. Transform my ways to your ways.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Wisdom

Wisdom and understanding comes through meditating on Jesus (The Word of God). Always ask Holy Spirit to reveal truth, this are things you already know by heart but sometimes we need to review.

Revelation will come to you in your intimacy with the Lord. In your meditation He will offer what you need to contemplate on. With time His word is written in our hearts. God lets us access it. In intimacy with Jesus, who seeks a real relationship not a ritual. Jesus asks for transformation. Transformation means a process that can bruise and hurt… The end result makes it worthwhile, a promise becomes yours. Imagine believing that the blind can see. You will not doubt once if I should pray or not for a blind individual.

“Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you believe so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭15:13‬ ‭CSB‬‬

“My mouth speaks wisdom; my heart’s meditation brings understanding.”

Psalms 49:3 CSB

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight. Don’t be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil. This will be healing for your body and strengthening for your bones.”

Proverbs 3:5-8 CSB

“I have filled him with God’s Spirit, with wisdom, understanding, and ability in every craft to design artistic works in gold, silver, and bronze, to cut gemstones for mounting, and to carve wood for work in every craft. I have also selected Oholiab son of Ahisamach, of the tribe of Dan, to be with him. I have put wisdom in the heart of every skilled artisan in order to make all that I have commanded you: the tent of meeting, the ark of the testimony, the mercy seat that is on top of it, and all the other furnishings of the tent — the table with its utensils, the pure gold lampstand with all its utensils, the altar of incense, the altar of burnt offering with all its utensils, the basin with its stand — the specially woven garments, both the holy garments for the priest Aaron and the garments for his sons to serve as priests, the anointing oil, and the fragrant incense for the sanctuary. They must make them according to all that I have commanded you.””

Exodus 31:3-11 CSB

Seek wisdom, walking in Jesus love for others with all your heart. Everything else will be covered by our Father in heaven. I have lived it. My family is living proof that He is the God of the impossible. 🥰 Believe and you shall receive. 🦋

Please pray with me today…

God I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins, the ones I know and the ones I may not know about, we thank you for everything you do to change the nature in us that does not represent your kingdom purpose. Thank you for always correcting us with your love and understanding. Build us up to your understanding, your ways, your thoughts, in Jesus name . Amen.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

A girl’s miracle of love

My daughters and I have been sharing a lot of stories on testimonies happening all across the world through the humble willing hearts of children. They have been hearing continuous stories on wonders and miracles. One of my kids has even seen the power of prayer in my own life and the life of her father. We have been reading books on how to believe that the kingdom of God is near. I can recommend the book we have been reading for a while: “Here Comes Heaven.” Of authors Bill Johnson, Mike Seth, & Marilyn Seth.

Air conditioner testimony…

Our air conditioner would not let cold air out. For some reason we fixed it twice and it did not fix permanently, it would work maybe for a week or two and then stopped working. We did not have the budget to buy another air conditioner at the time so we have been sleeping with a fan for the past 6 months.

A month or so ago we started to pray as a family every night. Each and every person gets to say their petitions and we also read a little scripture. We also have a little notebook to place names and pray for the sick people we may know about. Three days ago I get the idea of praying for my kids with one specific purpose, that God uses them in a mighty way to bless other souls around them.

(This grows out of being thankful to have them in my life, miracles that God lend to us, to guide here on earth. Science said it was impossible, God said I am possible. Anything with God is possible. My heart is set in having my family and every person see what I see and feel what I feel serving Jesus Christ.)

My 5 year old with all authority told me last night: “Mom turn on your room A/C.” (I found this kind of strange because she knows it does not work.) I did decide to listen since she persisted. She asks me: “Mom were is the remote, were do I turn it on.” I explain to my husband what she just said and he just leaves what he was doing and goes outside and turns on the A/C electric switch. He does not question he just commits and acts on his daughter’s faith.

Our daughters get on the bed and the little one standing, just starts speaking to God saying: “Lord, thank You that the A/C is working. Lord, may this A/C get cold so my parents get to sleep as confortable as I do.”

We acted on her faith, not saying anything just following her lead by closing the windows, together in faith. Our little one was still on top of our bed hands up high going in circles praising the Lord for what He had already done. Our eldest just staring at her in awe of what she was doing and how we were all just moving and respecting her faith.

I had never seen her so sure of a prayer request. If we had a mind set on the things of this world, we could have never accepted what she was saying. We had already been praying for a new reality, open eyes, and ears to things above and not bellow, we were already willing to accept God’s reality not our worldly reality. This could not be reason or placed into logic.

I am so thankful of my daughters for their compassion toward us. I am so thankful for my youngest sincere humble heart, submitted to God for the love she has for her parents. Thanks to her yesterday we slept in A/C that was colder than ever before.

One of my favorite Pastors recently stated “that the person who seeks true friendship with God, lives daily testimonies at His feet.”

We should all pray without ceasing like Paul explains so we can see eyes and ears wide open to what God has in store for all those who choose to love Him.

Loved ones

Its a challenge to forget what the world may say or how the world may judge. For me, I don’t really see the challenge because I have met the one I have to submit to every day. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

Most Christians I know can not and will never understand the challenge of pursuing a deep spiritual life surrounded by love ones that can’t see beyond your old life. I am walking in faith and praying each and every day that God gives them eyes to see and ears to hear.

I pray and bless each person and I consider and pray for my family daily. For most of them I know they are waiting for this part of my life to pass. The incredible thing is that this is here to stay. Sometimes when the Spirit moves us into a God appointment you are not thinking about others feelings or needs. Its hard because I still love them and they are a priority but above them comes God.

I hear my friend saying to me how he is waiting for the day he can see me again being the life of the party. I no longer want to party the way the world wants to party. I want to go to God’s “disco” church. Used to have a family member that called Church “God’s disco” to this day I find it funny and yet so true. I want to represent His truth.

His truth in my life today is…

A God life has changed my wants and needs completely. I am so thankful because I can see breakthrough in the life of so many through prayer and a loving message. I am driven to love, that is to love whoever God sets out to inject with His truth daily.

A life full of God is all we need to live complete.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭CSB

Why grace?

Why not?

Grace is Jesus meeting you in your disaster. Grace is God saving you from a lifetime of mistakes. Grace is the eraser of the bad things you may have done in your past. God’s grace just rearranges your future to be full of hope and expectation. God’s grace forgets your shortcomings and prepares a better version of you. God’s grace transforms every part of your being inside out. God’s grace is so wasted in this world by people choosing the wrong side. God is never asking perfection. God is asking YOU to do your best from where you are standing today. God asks that you start by changing something that you know that is making you sick or is hurting you in any way. How is this possible?  How can God be that simple? Well it is always a work in process. “the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives” (Titus 2:11). God will be changing the worst of you by creating the best person you can be. Sometimes that includes difficult circumstances to learn wisdom, understanding, patience, love and many more great attributes. “grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (2 Peter 2:18). God makes you a believer by the miracles and wonders you begin to see in your life. People start to serve you and help you even when you were not expecting anything. This is the favor of God over your life. God has a better plan for you. God wants you rested, God wants you ready, God wants you set for what He is preparing you for. God prepares you for the call he already gave you. You are not prepared beforehand, you are prepared by walking in faith with his decisions. How can I know the decisions you make are his? Usually He will do the calling through thoughts, bible, or even speak on an audible voice. I have never had the honor of getting an audible voice but know of many faithful servants that have heard God’s voice. How do you know your thoughts are God’s and not yours? Usually you would never think of the option he sets in front of you. The majority of the time God also confirms what he is saying by using another friend or faithful servant showing you exactly the same idea He wants for your life.

Choose God and love Him and respect Him while living your life and being a testimony throughout your life. Never stop saying how amazing and faithful He is so you can testify and continue to grow in your own faith. The most important part of our faith is to testify to everyone what God has done for you. He will continue to transform other lives through the gospel and the miracles and the wonders people begin to believe and experience the power of your testimony. Never stop testifying. Testifying is key.

“I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior.”

My daily morning prayer… Why? Because I want to be a spectator and a facilitator of His amazing grace.

Please pray with me:

Jesus thank you for coming into my heart.

Thank you for taking away what does not represent your kingdom.

May your kingdom come, and your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Transform and renew the world with your love and your amazing grace.

 

Jesus loves you and so do I.