Intimate letter to Abba

Abba I am here writing to You to tell you how impressed we are by your masterpiece. To look at your dusk and to look at you dawn, and its majestic colors just fills our hearts with joy. The time spent in prayer, the time spent in reading your word has transformed our thinking. My family is blessed to know you and to seek you daily. Can’t wait to see the fruits in everyone’s intimate relationship with you.

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This season I started to notice how my heart is seeking to love you and to thank you for everything you do daily for our family and our walk of faith. Abba you picked me before the world was created. Lord you knew me from the time I was being formed in my mother’s wound. Even when my mother and my father considered terminating my life you had called me and had a wonderful plan for my life (Isaiah 49:1).

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You say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and even before I knew who my Father is, You covered me under your wings (Isaiah 54:17). My mother and my father had to cancel the abortion because You my Abba had better plans for your servant (Psalm 27:10). Thank you, Father that I now see what is to have a thankful heart. I feel in my inner most being to thank you every day that no matter what my parents did, I was loved by my Father in heaven way before I was conceived (Isaiah 54:8). Now at your feet meditating on your word and your truth I can see all the times you chose a better life for me. Thank you Abba for the truth revealed at your feet (Isaiah 48:17).

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I moved to Las Vegas, Nevada when I was young and stupid and made many poor choices and you still covered me under your wings (Psalm 91:1). I still see all the times you called me to align my life with your purpose for my life and I just was too blind to see beyond my self-pity. Thank you for bringing my life out of the pit of depression, anxiety, loneliness, and chaos (Psalm 103:4). Nobody knew how deeply hurt I was, my heart was so numb. I can see now how hurt people keep hurting others around them without even noticing it (Proverbs 17:22). I remember the day I left the front door open to my apartment, I lived next to the gate where everyone enters and leaves the community daily. I slept with that door open all night long and my purse was next to the front door. Nothing happened! Why? You Abba Father, You covered me and kept me safe (Proverbs 18:10 CJB). I remember the day “my dream guy” asked me to get married in a drive by church in Las Vegas and you placed in my heart’s understanding “this is not the time, the place, or the guy.” Abba I can see it now, you showed up every time I needed you, even in the worst choices I made, you were there to carry me back to your side (Isaiah 43:19). Deep down inside all I wanted was real love and acceptance that this world was unable to give me. I always seemed to know that I needed to pray and I did, even in my worst situations I prayed, I knew having you in my life was necessary. All that time praying without even knowing how to speak to you, you listened and you took care of me. First of all thank you for helping me find You so I could be healed and transformed through the love of family. I found it Abba, thank you because I found the love of my life, I found the family that filled every void I carried for so long, thank you Abba. I found the people that deserve all my time and energy to build them up to understand that they are loved, not by me alone, but by You. You are the Alpha and the Omega. You are omnipresent, omniscient, the God who heals, the God who gives peace that surpasses all earthly understanding, You are the Holy One, You are the creator, You are the ultimate creative genius on earth and in the heavens.

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Lord, I want to be your servant until my last breath. I wish to ask you before I go:

Did I helped woke up the souls that you needed to be awaken so the truth of your love and your ways would disperse across the world?

Was I your living walking testimony each and every day?

Did I do what you sent me to do in this time on earth?

Did I feed enough lives?

Please pray with me today,

Thank you, Father for a new day where I take a new breath and I am able to listen to your birds sing, I can see your butterflies, I can see your dawn, I can see your beautiful skies, I can see your care, your love for me and my family. Here I am Father, a new day awaits, may I be able to listen to your still voice, your servant awaits. Amen.

In Jesus name we pray.

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Atheist to believer. Seek, you will find!

251231_448611605191559_1990647183_nAgain, I am not a theologian or a pastor at any church. I used to be an Atheist. Now by supernatural experiences I am an ambassador of Christ Jesus. He decided to save me by his unfailing grace and love through faith. I did experience my healing miracle in a water-fire baptism at my church. As soon as I was submerged in that water I saw Jesus garment and grabbed it just like the woman with the ailment that decided to believe, so she could receive. In case you don’t know about this story in the bible I will give you a summary. Jesus turned around surrounded by a sea of people and asked who touched him. His followers actually told him that everyone was pressing against him. How could he ask this? Jesus explained to them that he knew that power had been released from him for healing purposes. The woman with the ailment now healed after touching Jesus garment said that it was her who touched him and he said to her: “woman, your faith has healed you.” The week before my supernatural encounter with Jesus garment I had been reading Benny Hinn’s book named “Rise and be healed”. Oh my God what power this “little” book with a healing prayer and all backed up by true scripture written on Jesus healing miracles only. I should clear up that I was desperate for hope, going through cancer and soon surgery. I had been like this woman throughout my life and I considered in my mind and meditated praying to God, that I would touch His garment to be healed. I said it so many times that week with such conviction. The week before my baptism I read this book 3 times. It says on the word that faith comes through hearing the word of God. This is the reason for meditating on the word of God. Many of the great ministers today meditate on one or two verses at a time for hours. They want to make that word alive in their hearts. In the book of proverbs exhorts us on writing God’s rules in our hearts.

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Faith is the ability to believe what has not yet come to pass. That whole week before my baptism I was using my imagination. I was believing I would touch Jesus garmet. The battle for faith is work when you have not come into a relationship with the author of the bible. When you go to His secret place and ask Him to meet you were you are in life with a sincere heart, that is when it does start getting interesting. You have to be willing to serve the Lord with fear and trembling. It’s an all mighty powerful God that you serve. The wonders He can show us can’t be placed into words. I have been getting to know our father for years and still feel I have so much more to learn. To this day I ask myself so many questions that I know only through relationship. I am still working on getting to the point of just trusting His way, trust me, by now, I know, is way better than a straight answer. I see faith as a way to learn how to trust in God and believe that His word is real and alive today for those who earnestly seek Him. When we keep seeking His Love and understanding in fervent prayer for ourselves, but especially for others, knowing we are waiting for something that will happen, you open up the door of blessings in your life and the lives of those you pray for.

Pray with me today…

Thank you Jesus for a generation of fierce prayer warriors, willing to pray for every nation. Thank you Jesus for believers that will care more about fearing God and loving others than just thinking about themselves. Thank you Jesus for breakthrough in the life that is reading the message right now. Jesus I ask you to come into this person heart and take away all pain and all disappointment and all bitterness in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

 

 

 

A year to learn true Love

Why Love?

It all started when I saw this verse in the bible. If I speak human or angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so that I can move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give away all my possessions, and if I give over my body in order to boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3) I had decided to ask for tongues in prayer because one of my religious leaders told me that: “if I did not speak in tongues than I did not get the baptism of the Holy Spirit.” As soon as I saw this verse telling me that I would be a noisy gong if I did not have love. I needed to now change my prayer immediately to know love. I have been seeking more and more God’s truth on His love and some of my experiences have been so beautiful, they can’t be placed into human words. I still don’t know how to speak in tongues. Now the most incredible thing about no desire for tongues is, the true desire that reigns in my heart, is to remain in His love. I can tell you from experience that it is a second by second decision. When you have lived with a deficit of the true meaning of love it is a transformation to act in it. The Spirit of God is in you when you decide to remain in His power, in His way to love, and in His sound mind at all times. (2 Timothy 1:7) Each and every individual that decides to know the love of God has to be submerge daily in the spirit of God.

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Oh my God, this past year has been a roller coaster ride. God was always setting me up to learn the fruits of the spirit all year long. He was so wonderful to plan out a prayer asking for community. Soon after that, a faithful servant asked me to accompany her to her bible study group. When I arrived, they were already studying since august the Fruits of the Spirit. It’s incredible how God’s spirit moves us all through his wonderful faith without knowing. I arrived just in time to learn in community the last 3 fruits of the spirits in the list. This group of God’s fearing women have taught me a lot about community, love, and service. The power of Love is so beautiful within this group of women. All have their own personal lives, but all are willing to come together and pray for the needs of others, even in the distance. This an amazing group that truly wishes to keep growing in their faith. I have been seeing how God has kept teaching me, to be myself around others. I used to never open up to anyone other than my closest family and my closest friends. I am so thankful to God for letting me know that even without knowing Christ that long, he still uses me to love and encourage others through the love he has poured into me. Within this time of learning in community and trying to remain as transparent as possible, God showed me how important it is to maintain one on one relationship with Him. The ability to bless others is only fruitful when we are full of His love, His presence, His knowledge, His desires, His understanding, and His grace. This only happens through deep prayer in intimacy with our father who is in heaven. The importance of that private prayer to grow and love without restraint is so necessary in these troubled times. I have been communicating my personal experiences about how I keep seeking God’s favor and love, for your information in case it happens to you, this makes many people uncomfortable. Within the personal relationship with God, I have received comforting truth revealed to my heart, and I am thankful to be able to share it with the people that God places in my heart to share it with.

The spirit of God calls us to die to the flesh. I started dying to myself this past year. The most incredible thing is that when I arrived at this bible study group, that was the name of the book dying to yourself. I started dying to self by reading the fruits of the spirits every day and praying to God to reveal all as truth to my heart. I know from personal experience that these fruits of the spirit are the key to living according to God’s desires. The most beautiful thing about God’s desires, is that they are compared to the best dream your parents had for your future while you were growing up. If you commit to living in His desires for your life you will live out the promises He has in store for you. I don’t know about you, but I want this for myself. It means to be faithful in prayer and knowing who our Father is.

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Before I decided to embark on this faith journey I thought I knew myself. I thought I had my life all figured out. I understood with my own understanding that if I had already seen Jesus garment and had an encounter with His burning fire in my baptism my faith was all figured out. Now I can see that the whole point of the journey in life is to grow each day stronger in our Love for God and other people, His truth, and our faith. When I started to learn all the fruits of the spirit, God confronted me and showed me that I did not know how to truly love, and how to be really confident in my own skin. The funny thing is that throughout seeking Jesus I kept knowing who I really was through God’s eyes. He revealed to me how empty of the important things I was. I thought I knew it all. I thought I had it all. I thought that having and acting in his gifts meant I had already understood what it was to be a child of God. The more I kept on reading his word and seeking His knowledge and wisdom I could see how much more of God we all need. This is a journey and it is not a competition. The journey should be as a family, building each other up, and knowing when to retreat from people’s lives to let them grow in faith with God.

 

Please pray with me today…

 

God, thank you, that we have the honor to share with one another our gifts, so we can help one another in reaching new levels of knowledge, wisdom and understanding in life.

 

Thank you, Abba, for all the abilities that make us capable of loving one another and edifying one another daily.

 

Thank you, Jesus, that you made us free to be who God meant for us to be. Never comparing ourselves or our faith to others.

 

Thank you for this day and being able to honor my promise to testify.

 

God bless you and may you open your heart to Jesus, so he can make His home inside of you today and always.

 

In Jesus name. Amen.

 

God loves you and so do I.