It all started when I saw this verse in the bible. If I speak human or angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so that I can move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give away all my possessions, and if I give over my body in order to boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3) I had decided to ask for tongues in prayer because one of my religious leaders told me that: “if I did not speak in tongues than I did not get the baptism of the Holy Spirit.” As soon as I saw this verse telling me that I would be a noisy gong if I did not have love. I needed to now change my prayer immediately to know love. I have been seeking more and more God’s truth on His love and some of my experiences have been so beautiful, they can’t be placed into human words. I still don’t know how to speak in tongues. Now the most incredible thing about no desire for tongues is, the true desire that reigns in my heart, is to remain in His love. I can tell you from experience that it is a second by second decision. When you have lived with a deficit of the true meaning of love it is a transformation to act in it. The Spirit of God is in you when you decide to remain in His power, in His way to love, and in His sound mind at all times. (2 Timothy 1:7) Each and every individual that decides to know the love of God has to be submerge daily in the spirit of God.
Oh my God, this past year has been a roller coaster ride. God was always setting me up to learn the fruits of the spirit all year long. He was so wonderful to plan out a prayer asking for community. Soon after that, a faithful servant asked me to accompany her to her bible study group. When I arrived, they were already studying since august the Fruits of the Spirit. It’s incredible how God’s spirit moves us all through his wonderful faith without knowing. I arrived just in time to learn in community the last 3 fruits of the spirits in the list. This group of God’s fearing women have taught me a lot about community, love, and service. The power of Love is so beautiful within this group of women. All have their own personal lives, but all are willing to come together and pray for the needs of others, even in the distance. This an amazing group that truly wishes to keep growing in their faith. I have been seeing how God has kept teaching me, to be myself around others. I used to never open up to anyone other than my closest family and my closest friends. I am so thankful to God for letting me know that even without knowing Christ that long, he still uses me to love and encourage others through the love he has poured into me. Within this time of learning in community and trying to remain as transparent as possible, God showed me how important it is to maintain one on one relationship with Him. The ability to bless others is only fruitful when we are full of His love, His presence, His knowledge, His desires, His understanding, and His grace. This only happens through deep prayer in intimacy with our father who is in heaven. The importance of that private prayer to grow and love without restraint is so necessary in these troubled times. I have been communicating my personal experiences about how I keep seeking God’s favor and love, for your information in case it happens to you, this makes many people uncomfortable. Within the personal relationship with God, I have received comforting truth revealed to my heart, and I am thankful to be able to share it with the people that God places in my heart to share it with.
The spirit of God calls us to die to the flesh. I started dying to myself this past year. The most incredible thing is that when I arrived at this bible study group, that was the name of the book dying to yourself. I started dying to self by reading the fruits of the spirits every day and praying to God to reveal all as truth to my heart. I know from personal experience that these fruits of the spirit are the key to living according to God’s desires. The most beautiful thing about God’s desires, is that they are compared to the best dream your parents had for your future while you were growing up. If you commit to living in His desires for your life you will live out the promises He has in store for you. I don’t know about you, but I want this for myself. It means to be faithful in prayer and knowing who our Father is.
Before I decided to embark on this faith journey I thought I knew myself. I thought I had my life all figured out. I understood with my own understanding that if I had already seen Jesus garment and had an encounter with His burning fire in my baptism my faith was all figured out. Now I can see that the whole point of the journey in life is to grow each day stronger in our Love for God and other people, His truth, and our faith. When I started to learn all the fruits of the spirit, God confronted me and showed me that I did not know how to truly love, and how to be really confident in my own skin. The funny thing is that throughout seeking Jesus I kept knowing who I really was through God’s eyes. He revealed to me how empty of the important things I was. I thought I knew it all. I thought I had it all. I thought that having and acting in his gifts meant I had already understood what it was to be a child of God. The more I kept on reading his word and seeking His knowledge and wisdom I could see how much more of God we all need. This is a journey and it is not a competition. The journey should be as a family, building each other up, and knowing when to retreat from people’s lives to let them grow in faith with God.
Please pray with me today…
God, thank you, that we have the honor to share with one another our gifts, so we can help one another in reaching new levels of knowledge, wisdom and understanding in life.
Thank you, Abba, for all the abilities that make us capable of loving one another and edifying one another daily.
Thank you, Jesus, that you made us free to be who God meant for us to be. Never comparing ourselves or our faith to others.
Thank you for this day and being able to honor my promise to testify.
God bless you and may you open your heart to Jesus, so he can make His home inside of you today and always.
In Jesus name. Amen.
God loves you and so do I.