Atheist to believer. Seek, you will find!

251231_448611605191559_1990647183_nAgain, I am not a theologian or a pastor at any church. I used to be an Atheist. Now by supernatural experiences I am an ambassador of Christ Jesus. He decided to save me by his unfailing grace and love through faith. I did experience my healing miracle in a water-fire baptism at my church. As soon as I was submerged in that water I saw Jesus garment and grabbed it just like the woman with the ailment that decided to believe, so she could receive. In case you don’t know about this story in the bible I will give you a summary. Jesus turned around surrounded by a sea of people and asked who touched him. His followers actually told him that everyone was pressing against him. How could he ask this? Jesus explained to them that he knew that power had been released from him for healing purposes. The woman with the ailment now healed after touching Jesus garment said that it was her who touched him and he said to her: “woman, your faith has healed you.” The week before my supernatural encounter with Jesus garment I had been reading Benny Hinn’s book named “Rise and be healed”. Oh my God what power this “little” book with a healing prayer and all backed up by true scripture written on Jesus healing miracles only. I should clear up that I was desperate for hope, going through cancer and soon surgery. I had been like this woman throughout my life and I considered in my mind and meditated praying to God, that I would touch His garment to be healed. I said it so many times that week with such conviction. The week before my baptism I read this book 3 times. It says on the word that faith comes through hearing the word of God. This is the reason for meditating on the word of God. Many of the great ministers today meditate on one or two verses at a time for hours. They want to make that word alive in their hearts. In the book of proverbs exhorts us on writing God’s rules in our hearts.

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Faith is the ability to believe what has not yet come to pass. That whole week before my baptism I was using my imagination. I was believing I would touch Jesus garmet. The battle for faith is work when you have not come into a relationship with the author of the bible. When you go to His secret place and ask Him to meet you were you are in life with a sincere heart, that is when it does start getting interesting. You have to be willing to serve the Lord with fear and trembling. It’s an all mighty powerful God that you serve. The wonders He can show us can’t be placed into words. I have been getting to know our father for years and still feel I have so much more to learn. To this day I ask myself so many questions that I know only through relationship. I am still working on getting to the point of just trusting His way, trust me, by now, I know, is way better than a straight answer. I see faith as a way to learn how to trust in God and believe that His word is real and alive today for those who earnestly seek Him. When we keep seeking His Love and understanding in fervent prayer for ourselves, but especially for others, knowing we are waiting for something that will happen, you open up the door of blessings in your life and the lives of those you pray for.

Pray with me today…

Thank you Jesus for a generation of fierce prayer warriors, willing to pray for every nation. Thank you Jesus for believers that will care more about fearing God and loving others than just thinking about themselves. Thank you Jesus for breakthrough in the life that is reading the message right now. Jesus I ask you to come into this person heart and take away all pain and all disappointment and all bitterness in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

Jesus loves you and so do I.

 

 

 

Faith on steroids…

My faith was not made in the church(building) or people. My faith was established in relationship with God/Holy Spirit/Jesus. I am not a Pastor or a Theologian. I have been set Free from so many things. Depression, anxiety, insecurities, hatred, emptiness, suicidal thoughts, and to this day I am still being set free of so many more to be able to walk in His divine promises and the Fruits of His spirit. I understand the daily fight to crucify the Flesh and all earthly desires to be transformed in our minds. In my quest to understand God’s healings and blessings I have studied scripture and prayed for so long I know this to be the truth as it says in John 8:32 “the truth shall set you free.” I have lived in His faith for more than ten years now. This has been a rollercoaster ride. I had my ups and downs learning. I am just starting, I know this to be true because His wisdom surpasses all “earthly” understanding. 

His promises NEVER CHANGE…

In this bible verse is talking about Jesus in the cross. “In fact, it was our diseases he bore, our pains from which he suffered; yet we regarded him as punished, stricken and afflicted by God. But he was wounded because of our crimes, crushed because of our sins; the disciplining that makes us whole fell on him, and by his bruises* we are healed. We all, like sheep, went astray; we turned, each one, to his own way; yet ADONAI laid on him the guilt of all of us.”

Yesha ‘yahu (Isa) 53:4-6 CJB

He paid the price so all of us who decide to believe be completely free of affliction. There is NO BIBLICAL proof that Paul suffered sickness after He was healed. Its inferred. Yes He did have the affliction of the flesh and earthly desires that he had to take to the cross every single day and crucify those. I believe that his afflictions could be his own guilt for all the lives he killed in the name of “religion” before knowing the love of Jesus. By crucifying his flesh, he had to forgive himself daily from any accusation his guilt would bring up. We are all asked to do the same in our Father’s perfect prayer. Forgive our sin so we may forgive others, lead us not into temptation.

Moses lived His promises up to old age: it says with No illness and the strength of a young man. So what is between us and our promises of healing and living in divine health? Our own beliefs. My kindergartener at some point kept saying a prayer she had learned in school before dinner that ended with: “believe and you shall receive.” I asked her why? She said because her teacher taught her thats the way to pray. To this day I bless that God fearing lady because through her prayer I learned that faith was that simple. Thanks to her knowledge I believed and I received many miracles. I believed and I have lived in His divine health. I am proud to say that I am a cancer survivor since 2010 thanks to His divine intervention. 

I had a real conversation will ABBA after the hurricane Maria and I said to him: If you gave Mana to the Israelites in the desert and they never went hungry or got sick ¡You Can Do this For my Family! (My kids used to suffer from so many allergies I was at some point afraid they would have to visit those death infected Hospitals). I claimed to Jesus and asked Him to intercede for us. To ABBA I ask daily that we as a family may walk out in His perfect promises without doubt. We have been seeing it. We have been living it. My 5 year old used to be on pulmonary steroids all the time. She is no longer since September 2017 when my faith went on steroids in Hurricane Maria disaster, experienced in our precious island of Puerto Rico*. My eldest used to be on antiallergic meds every day, now she is not since September 2017. “If I believe I receive.” Never letting comments and doubts enter my mind. If I see an illness coming on, I have learn to rebuked it in Jesus name. There is Power in the name of Jesus. If I have received a comment of any illness that can’t be “healed or escaped” I have rebuked it in Jesus name. 

If I see an illness coming on I have rebuked it in The Name of Jesus, because I have seen God working in every area of our lives. I also continue reading all God’s healing promises writen in the bible. This way I grow in my belief of Jesus supernatural ability to heal the sick. I am one to give thanks to God every day.  It does not matter how tired I am, I go get on my knees and give thanks to ABBA on His special time. Sometimes He wakes me up and I start covering everyone he sets out to bless, in Prayer. 

Please pray with me today:

Lord, thank you for opening our spiritual eyes and ears to know You are with us at all times.

Lord thank you for giving me a new day to praise You.

Lord thank you for your divine provision.

Lord thank you for believing in your miracles today.

Lord thank you for making me a fascilitator for your love, peace, truth, and wonders.

Thank you Jesus that more people will open up their bibles today so they get to testify to God’s healing promises.

In Jesus name. Amen.

 

God loves you, and so do I.

 

*(Yes, Puerto Rico is a US Territory and Puertoricans are american citizens.)

Faith 101 for me was…

First comes faith…

I asked God for faith. Storms would reach our lives and I was the one so upset and unhappy with everything. I could always be ready to see the problem and never the solution. My husband always had his mind set on the solution. He never doubted that everything would work out great. Now I can see what he knew in his soul and I did not. In bible study he had learn the promise that everything turns out good for those who love the Lord. I know he had heard that so many times growing up that he never questions that security. On the other hand, I never knew what a bible study was until I met my husband. When I get to see how secure my husband and his family always are regarding outcomes, I wanted in on this faith deal. I worried my whole life about everything. I know now that faith comes by hearing the word of God. I know that God used two situations in my life to reveal faith to my life. My eldest daughter was supposed to be born according to science with down syndrome and incomplete kidneys. So, my church ICDC Metro, my husband, and his family prayed for her with such conviction. Already during pregnancy were declaring her healed and complete each and every time they would see me. I know that all this helped build some kind of hunger for this so-called faith. So, life went on, and my daughter was born with all her 10 fingers, 10 toes, and completely normal. I was amazed, and I was thankful for all who had faith for me. I had prayed but I know the ones that had faith were others in my life. So, my daughter at 2 years of age spoke in sentences and could actually read. When I lived this whole miracle, I was elated. I did not really acknowledge how huge God was in all this until I got to experience faith for myself. I asked my husband and my mother in law to tell me what faith was. They both told me the same answer different days, ask God for faith. Surely enough, I did, I asked God for faith when my daughter was 2 years old. A week later I got my new job and that same day that I was signing my contract with this wonderful company that was going to give me medical insurance from the first day, I went to the doctor after to see some biopsy results and the doctor said that I had Cancer. Wow. So, the same day I got medical insurance, I got cancer. That was just the start of my faith process. I went to my first doctor that I got referred to and I was told that I was to have my face paralyzed for life and they would have to order weights to put into my eyelids, so I would close my eyes at night to be able to sleep. I was just starting to say God was in control and everything was going to be ok and this doctor was telling me about the worst outcome for my surgery. This same doctor had a recent case that went through the same ordeal and he got that result when he operated on that individual. I could see his frustration and he just kept being negative about my outcome while I would say: “but God is in control.” As soon as I got out of this consult I was so beaten in my little faith that this little baby boy comes up to me and I immediately think I won’t be able to smile like this with my kid ever again. So, the secretary sees my eyes are about to start the waterworks of defeat and she says to me these words: “he is a man and he does not have the last word.” I could not believe what I was hearing. I was so moved by her words I never started to despair. So, I once again decided to remember God’s word. Remember this word, I DECIDED, to remain in what little faith I was given through this wonderful woman God used with words of wisdom. I get out of the office and I get 3 calls from my mother, my father, and my mother in law all had a different doctor that I should go see. I explain what I had gone through and they all gave me beautiful words that just kept my faith going in the right direction. I was still feeling a bit empty and insecure, so I went to this Christian Book Store and I knew I needed to get a specific CD that I had heard a beautiful testimony from this man and I also needed to get some kind of book that would teach me about faith. So, I got both. The CD I wanted was not in the store, but the lady had the new one from the same artist. So, I decided to buy that one. As soon as I got in my car and I played this CD I could hear God in my soul speaking to me. This song was telling me to not fear because God was with me, it was also telling me that if I even went through fire I would never get burned, it was telling me that if I was ever feeling alone God would cover me. I felt this peace coming over me and taking over my heart. I felt something I had never felt before, I felt like God was hugging me deep within my chest directly in my heart. Today I can say His Spirit was hugging my soul. It felt so incredible. I cried and cried and cried because it felt so complete and so necessary because it put my mind at ease. I know this was His peace that surpasses all understanding. That same day my new job had decided to make a decision if they could wait for my medical situation a couple of weeks before I could really start. I needed emergency surgery to remove the tumor and I could not wait 6 months for my permanency to come through. So, they called me right after my encounter with God, with their decision. They asked me how I felt. Well at that moment I felt I could conquer the world so that is exactly how I answered. This was the new me, the changed me answering with faith that I knew God was in control that I was not doubting, and I was just confident that everything would turn out ok. So, the company was satisfied with this answer and were willing to wait. So, they were giving me 2 weeks to get my surgery and come back. I had a lot of options to visit different doctors, yet I did not have the time to spare to go doctor shopping as I called it. Well the next day I left my 2-year-old in good hands and went back home to put my head together. While I was at home I searched online for my condition and read some really negative things, so I stopped myself and ask God. I remember my mother in law always telling me, when you pray you have to be specific. That is actually what I did. I opened the yellow pages online and told God to show me the doctor that would do His work on me. I just flipped one page an I saw a very beautiful name and I said: “this is too much coincidence so let just keep going and as soon as I turn the page there it was at the top of that list.” So, trusting a bit I called the number saying to the lady: “maybe you guys know a doctor that deals with this specific cancer.” She quickly answered and told me: “you are calling the specialist in what you have come right away with all the documents.” So, I hung up and called my husband and said to him, that we found the doctor. He did not believe what I was saying so he said this time he would go with me. This was a Friday at 11 am and this is pretty late to visit a doctor. So, my husband was skeptic at this point due to my past experience. My husband on the way to the doctor decides to take my hand and pray. He humbly spoke to God and asked Him to please confirm that this was the doctor to do His job. So as soon as we got there we waited quite a bit. Of the three rooms the doctor had, I got the one with a picture of Jesus guiding the surgeon’s hands in surgery. The doctor had already seen my files in his office before coming in to see me. So as soon as he entered the room he hugged me like if he was my grandfather and told me: “don’t worry I will save your face.” Oh my God this doctor did not know my situation and he spoke to me with love knowing with certainty the words I needed to hear, this was God using him to confirm as my husband had asked in prayer before getting to this doctor’s office. He immediately said he had no space and that he had a full schedule and no space. We were worried, and he left the room and said that he would be back. My husband was so moved about what God was doing that his eyes were watery and red. He was moved, and I was moved by God’s love in that medical office. Doctor came back in and he said to me that he would operate on Monday. This was a Friday. He had said he was full. So, I asked how was this all possible? He said that someone that was getting operated on Monday got sick. God align everything. He gave me a lot of documents to go to do pre-admission at the hospital and said good luck, you need to do all these labs and make sure all is done today. It was 2:30 and the hospital was closing at 3pm so we were really short on time. Thank the Lord the hospital was not that far away. We paid and left for the hospital. I got there at 3pm on the dot so I knew that this could mean no surgery Monday. The lady at the counter looked at me very upset but still took the papers and accepted me for the process. As soon as we started the process just filling out the documents a couple of doctors came from surgery and start commenting how they were converted because they open a lady and all her tumors had disappeared before they even started the surgery. So, they really believed God was with her because the patient had told them, and they did not believe enough to do a sonogram. After this I was taken into another area to take my vitals and blood and the lady started humming the baby’s Christian song I would sing to my kids when I was putting them to bed. She even talks to my husband about her family’s faith without us even asking. After this we wait a long while in the waiting area for the last process to answer quite a few questions with a nurse about our medical history. While waiting I was called by my pastor at the time and I was offered to be baptized on Sunday and I agreed, I said “that I would be honored.” Apparently, my mother in law had called him regarding my circumstances and this made him consider me to be baptized before I had finished my baptism classes. I was honored. I had been reading so much about Jesus and healing that I knew I needed to find out more and if that meant getting baptized I was in. I was experiencing something in faith that I had never lived. I felt that God was with me in every part of my process. For the first time I was feeling His faithfulness. I was understanding what trusting in the almighty God was all about. I was being transformed inside out. I was feeling Him and when I would tell others my testimonies I would know He was there. I knew in my new love for God I had to testify, and I was doing this. In this book that I got I was reading that whole week before I got baptized the promises of healing. The one that got my attention was the woman with the blood disease because I had always bled 20 days or more a month due to certain condition I had. So, when I kept reading this woman touch Jesus cloth and got healed through her faith. I said to God all I need is to touch your cloth and I shall be healed. SO, this happened as soon as I was getting baptized that Sunday morning before my operation on Monday. The baptism was something so radical. I was prayed over by 4 to 6 elders before they sent me to my water baptism. When the elders stopped praying I was already feeling fire in my neck. When the pastor submerged me in the waters I felt my tumor being burned and at the same time I could see Jesus garment and I touched it. I knew at that second, I had been healed. I went through the process of medical treatments and radiation for my family. I know it was God who truly healed me that day. God I am so thankful, and I praise the Lord for his grace in my life. I used to be a person full of hate and emptiness. I am so thankful God has transformed me supernaturally into this loving and caring individual.

I am so thankful that all my medical expenses were covered by my new medical insurance. We had recently bought a house and the medical expenses reached close to 50,000.00 and were all covered by my new medical insurance as a new employee in a company. I know this was all God. I praise the Lord for His love for our family. He covered everything before, during, and after all medical treatments. Our home was safe and our family financially secured.