The Way in His plans

Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.

He is the Way so He knows the best available option. Ask! Seek!

I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.

Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.

Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.

Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.

He said GO, and we WENT. Traveling with my girls starting Covid season, trusting Jesus. We all know He is faithful. Believing Psalm 91 promises all the way.

Access the Kingdom daily

What are you believing God to be?

God’s promises include us walking in His Love.

God’s promises include us walking in His goodness.

God’s promises include us walking in His faithfulness.

God’s promises include us walking in His joy.

God’s promises include living in abundance.

God has promises all over His awesome Word (Holy Bible) to bless our way and to prosper our life the way only He can make our soul prosper.

So now, the question would be:

How do I access this promises?

This promises require obedience to God. How?

Jesus came and explained the Kingdom of God…

Repent every day because we are sinners in need of a savior and only Jesus can work on our character for daily transformation. Amazing! God created the moon, the stars, the earths vegetation, animals, all creation in 7 days, yet He decides to work on us daily. We are all His unfinished masterpieces.

What gives God access to our life daily?

We have to decide to tell Jesus daily that we need Him and to repent of our sins to enter the Kingdom of God as a Child of God. Jesus gave us access to the Kingdom by His sacrifice on the cross of Calvary. The Blood of the Lamb (true passover Lamb) was Jesus that took away the sins of the world. We have to decide if we want to believe this and live a life full of amazing adventures with God. As you read your Holy Bible you will see. God permits the testing of our faith through afflictions, yet we do not live our whole lives in afflictions. Its important to God to test our faith to know is we are willing to remain faithful to God’s ways and not to the world’s ways.

To remain in this Kingdom we daily repent of our sins, spend time reading the Holy Bible, and live thanking God for the good and the bad in prayer. When we pray we should pray in private for everyone and everything that weights in our hearts. God wants to converse with us. When we pray, He is expecting a relationship. So, speak to God, how you would a trusted friend or family member.

Prayer for you today…

🌈 Jesus loves you, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves you. God wants to amaze you with His goodness, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, self-control. Give yourself a chance to experience what it is to be molded by your Creator’s love. Whenever we access God’s kingdom we get to live from this character traits that only point that you clothed yourself with Jesus righteousness that morning. ☀️

May you reign in life at the feet of Jesus. To submit to our Father in heaven means living in peace that surpasses all understanding. Careful who you share your life with, their words could determine life or death daily. 🔥

Rock your world

Oh, what a powerful understanding! I had to say this every time I would pray for someone. This is something the Lord had been teaching me constantly. Now I get to be obedient. My husband or my kids are my sidekicks when we go and bless whoever God sets out to bless.

Last night we got to go to another funeral. In this funeral my husband got to see one of his long time friends. A very nice veteran with a lot of history in and out of war zones in the middle east. He is a very elegant, honest, and humble person. He was explaining all medical complications due to trauma. Its amazing what these men have to go through in a war.

God definitely showed my husband this was a God encounter. So he started testifying about the God we know, the supernatural, always with us Jesus our redeemer. The guy was so hurt by religion he did not want anything to do with it. We mention about my position. I explained that I used to be a atheist and I did not believe in religion, that I believe in having a real relationship with Jesus. This made him listen.

That is when he started to be interested but not so convinced. I still went for what God wants which is to love even when they don’t know. God definitely showed up in prayer. He was just taking away all his trauma and past from his heart and filling him up with His amazing goodness and love. This man’s eyes where so moved and watery, I knew God had done what He came to do. He did not even want to let go of my hand. God is faithful. God is always wanting to love all his children.

After this gentleman, in that same funeral, a man started to speak to me while I was waiting for my husband. This man poured out his life traumas and his hurts so fast, I was amazed God wanted to heal someone else. This man let me know how he resented His father for being a violent drunk. He also resented God for loosing his mother, first to prison, and then dying early due to cancer. While his father continued his life without deserving it.

God through prayer opened his heart to release all that pressure and lifetime disappointments to pour into His spirit His love and goodness. With God’s love and healing this gentleman was moved. He was blessing my family and so thankful for such a moment. He was telling my husband how lucky he was to have me and my daughters. This is the love of God that was just poured into his heart, now he was just overflowing with God’s goodness and love for others.

God heals broken hearts.

God transform any situation.

God is waiting for us to let go and let God.

God is always available to bless and renew every one of His children.

I pray that God makes you feel His loving embrace through his wind. In Jesus name. Amen.

God loves you and so do I.

Truth to believe.

God says to you today. There is no trial without a way out, keep fighting. It does not matter how many times you fall down I will be with you, for the righteous man falls seven times and rises again. You will rise up stronger than before and above all else acknowledge all the wisdom obtained. Its important to know who you belong to. The God of angel armies that has no limits to help you. God is whispering do not faint because in your weakness I am made strong. Just ask and you shall receive. In the bible it is written 365 times “do not be afraid” one for every day of the year. Get Up!!! Heaven is up for grabs only for the brave. I know you want to reach it, just like me. God bless!

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A year to learn true Love

Why Love?

It all started when I saw this verse in the bible. If I speak human or angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so that I can move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give away all my possessions, and if I give over my body in order to boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3) I had decided to ask for tongues in prayer because one of my religious leaders told me that: “if I did not speak in tongues than I did not get the baptism of the Holy Spirit.” As soon as I saw this verse telling me that I would be a noisy gong if I did not have love. I needed to now change my prayer immediately to know love. I have been seeking more and more God’s truth on His love and some of my experiences have been so beautiful, they can’t be placed into human words. I still don’t know how to speak in tongues. Now the most incredible thing about no desire for tongues is, the true desire that reigns in my heart, is to remain in His love. I can tell you from experience that it is a second by second decision. When you have lived with a deficit of the true meaning of love it is a transformation to act in it. The Spirit of God is in you when you decide to remain in His power, in His way to love, and in His sound mind at all times. (2 Timothy 1:7) Each and every individual that decides to know the love of God has to be submerge daily in the spirit of God.

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Oh my God, this past year has been a roller coaster ride. God was always setting me up to learn the fruits of the spirit all year long. He was so wonderful to plan out a prayer asking for community. Soon after that, a faithful servant asked me to accompany her to her bible study group. When I arrived, they were already studying since august the Fruits of the Spirit. It’s incredible how God’s spirit moves us all through his wonderful faith without knowing. I arrived just in time to learn in community the last 3 fruits of the spirits in the list. This group of God’s fearing women have taught me a lot about community, love, and service. The power of Love is so beautiful within this group of women. All have their own personal lives, but all are willing to come together and pray for the needs of others, even in the distance. This an amazing group that truly wishes to keep growing in their faith. I have been seeing how God has kept teaching me, to be myself around others. I used to never open up to anyone other than my closest family and my closest friends. I am so thankful to God for letting me know that even without knowing Christ that long, he still uses me to love and encourage others through the love he has poured into me. Within this time of learning in community and trying to remain as transparent as possible, God showed me how important it is to maintain one on one relationship with Him. The ability to bless others is only fruitful when we are full of His love, His presence, His knowledge, His desires, His understanding, and His grace. This only happens through deep prayer in intimacy with our father who is in heaven. The importance of that private prayer to grow and love without restraint is so necessary in these troubled times. I have been communicating my personal experiences about how I keep seeking God’s favor and love, for your information in case it happens to you, this makes many people uncomfortable. Within the personal relationship with God, I have received comforting truth revealed to my heart, and I am thankful to be able to share it with the people that God places in my heart to share it with.

The spirit of God calls us to die to the flesh. I started dying to myself this past year. The most incredible thing is that when I arrived at this bible study group, that was the name of the book dying to yourself. I started dying to self by reading the fruits of the spirits every day and praying to God to reveal all as truth to my heart. I know from personal experience that these fruits of the spirit are the key to living according to God’s desires. The most beautiful thing about God’s desires, is that they are compared to the best dream your parents had for your future while you were growing up. If you commit to living in His desires for your life you will live out the promises He has in store for you. I don’t know about you, but I want this for myself. It means to be faithful in prayer and knowing who our Father is.

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Before I decided to embark on this faith journey I thought I knew myself. I thought I had my life all figured out. I understood with my own understanding that if I had already seen Jesus garment and had an encounter with His burning fire in my baptism my faith was all figured out. Now I can see that the whole point of the journey in life is to grow each day stronger in our Love for God and other people, His truth, and our faith. When I started to learn all the fruits of the spirit, God confronted me and showed me that I did not know how to truly love, and how to be really confident in my own skin. The funny thing is that throughout seeking Jesus I kept knowing who I really was through God’s eyes. He revealed to me how empty of the important things I was. I thought I knew it all. I thought I had it all. I thought that having and acting in his gifts meant I had already understood what it was to be a child of God. The more I kept on reading his word and seeking His knowledge and wisdom I could see how much more of God we all need. This is a journey and it is not a competition. The journey should be as a family, building each other up, and knowing when to retreat from people’s lives to let them grow in faith with God.

 

Please pray with me today…

 

God, thank you, that we have the honor to share with one another our gifts, so we can help one another in reaching new levels of knowledge, wisdom and understanding in life.

 

Thank you, Abba, for all the abilities that make us capable of loving one another and edifying one another daily.

 

Thank you, Jesus, that you made us free to be who God meant for us to be. Never comparing ourselves or our faith to others.

 

Thank you for this day and being able to honor my promise to testify.

 

God bless you and may you open your heart to Jesus, so he can make His home inside of you today and always.

 

In Jesus name. Amen.

 

God loves you and so do I.

Faith 101 for me was…

First comes faith…

I asked God for faith. Storms would reach our lives and I was the one so upset and unhappy with everything. I could always be ready to see the problem and never the solution. My husband always had his mind set on the solution. He never doubted that everything would work out great. Now I can see what he knew in his soul and I did not. In bible study he had learn the promise that everything turns out good for those who love the Lord. I know he had heard that so many times growing up that he never questions that security. On the other hand, I never knew what a bible study was until I met my husband. When I get to see how secure my husband and his family always are regarding outcomes, I wanted in on this faith deal. I worried my whole life about everything. I know now that faith comes by hearing the word of God. I know that God used two situations in my life to reveal faith to my life. My eldest daughter was supposed to be born according to science with down syndrome and incomplete kidneys. So, my church ICDC Metro, my husband, and his family prayed for her with such conviction. Already during pregnancy were declaring her healed and complete each and every time they would see me. I know that all this helped build some kind of hunger for this so-called faith. So, life went on, and my daughter was born with all her 10 fingers, 10 toes, and completely normal. I was amazed, and I was thankful for all who had faith for me. I had prayed but I know the ones that had faith were others in my life. So, my daughter at 2 years of age spoke in sentences and could actually read. When I lived this whole miracle, I was elated. I did not really acknowledge how huge God was in all this until I got to experience faith for myself. I asked my husband and my mother in law to tell me what faith was. They both told me the same answer different days, ask God for faith. Surely enough, I did, I asked God for faith when my daughter was 2 years old. A week later I got my new job and that same day that I was signing my contract with this wonderful company that was going to give me medical insurance from the first day, I went to the doctor after to see some biopsy results and the doctor said that I had Cancer. Wow. So, the same day I got medical insurance, I got cancer. That was just the start of my faith process. I went to my first doctor that I got referred to and I was told that I was to have my face paralyzed for life and they would have to order weights to put into my eyelids, so I would close my eyes at night to be able to sleep. I was just starting to say God was in control and everything was going to be ok and this doctor was telling me about the worst outcome for my surgery. This same doctor had a recent case that went through the same ordeal and he got that result when he operated on that individual. I could see his frustration and he just kept being negative about my outcome while I would say: “but God is in control.” As soon as I got out of this consult I was so beaten in my little faith that this little baby boy comes up to me and I immediately think I won’t be able to smile like this with my kid ever again. So, the secretary sees my eyes are about to start the waterworks of defeat and she says to me these words: “he is a man and he does not have the last word.” I could not believe what I was hearing. I was so moved by her words I never started to despair. So, I once again decided to remember God’s word. Remember this word, I DECIDED, to remain in what little faith I was given through this wonderful woman God used with words of wisdom. I get out of the office and I get 3 calls from my mother, my father, and my mother in law all had a different doctor that I should go see. I explain what I had gone through and they all gave me beautiful words that just kept my faith going in the right direction. I was still feeling a bit empty and insecure, so I went to this Christian Book Store and I knew I needed to get a specific CD that I had heard a beautiful testimony from this man and I also needed to get some kind of book that would teach me about faith. So, I got both. The CD I wanted was not in the store, but the lady had the new one from the same artist. So, I decided to buy that one. As soon as I got in my car and I played this CD I could hear God in my soul speaking to me. This song was telling me to not fear because God was with me, it was also telling me that if I even went through fire I would never get burned, it was telling me that if I was ever feeling alone God would cover me. I felt this peace coming over me and taking over my heart. I felt something I had never felt before, I felt like God was hugging me deep within my chest directly in my heart. Today I can say His Spirit was hugging my soul. It felt so incredible. I cried and cried and cried because it felt so complete and so necessary because it put my mind at ease. I know this was His peace that surpasses all understanding. That same day my new job had decided to make a decision if they could wait for my medical situation a couple of weeks before I could really start. I needed emergency surgery to remove the tumor and I could not wait 6 months for my permanency to come through. So, they called me right after my encounter with God, with their decision. They asked me how I felt. Well at that moment I felt I could conquer the world so that is exactly how I answered. This was the new me, the changed me answering with faith that I knew God was in control that I was not doubting, and I was just confident that everything would turn out ok. So, the company was satisfied with this answer and were willing to wait. So, they were giving me 2 weeks to get my surgery and come back. I had a lot of options to visit different doctors, yet I did not have the time to spare to go doctor shopping as I called it. Well the next day I left my 2-year-old in good hands and went back home to put my head together. While I was at home I searched online for my condition and read some really negative things, so I stopped myself and ask God. I remember my mother in law always telling me, when you pray you have to be specific. That is actually what I did. I opened the yellow pages online and told God to show me the doctor that would do His work on me. I just flipped one page an I saw a very beautiful name and I said: “this is too much coincidence so let just keep going and as soon as I turn the page there it was at the top of that list.” So, trusting a bit I called the number saying to the lady: “maybe you guys know a doctor that deals with this specific cancer.” She quickly answered and told me: “you are calling the specialist in what you have come right away with all the documents.” So, I hung up and called my husband and said to him, that we found the doctor. He did not believe what I was saying so he said this time he would go with me. This was a Friday at 11 am and this is pretty late to visit a doctor. So, my husband was skeptic at this point due to my past experience. My husband on the way to the doctor decides to take my hand and pray. He humbly spoke to God and asked Him to please confirm that this was the doctor to do His job. So as soon as we got there we waited quite a bit. Of the three rooms the doctor had, I got the one with a picture of Jesus guiding the surgeon’s hands in surgery. The doctor had already seen my files in his office before coming in to see me. So as soon as he entered the room he hugged me like if he was my grandfather and told me: “don’t worry I will save your face.” Oh my God this doctor did not know my situation and he spoke to me with love knowing with certainty the words I needed to hear, this was God using him to confirm as my husband had asked in prayer before getting to this doctor’s office. He immediately said he had no space and that he had a full schedule and no space. We were worried, and he left the room and said that he would be back. My husband was so moved about what God was doing that his eyes were watery and red. He was moved, and I was moved by God’s love in that medical office. Doctor came back in and he said to me that he would operate on Monday. This was a Friday. He had said he was full. So, I asked how was this all possible? He said that someone that was getting operated on Monday got sick. God align everything. He gave me a lot of documents to go to do pre-admission at the hospital and said good luck, you need to do all these labs and make sure all is done today. It was 2:30 and the hospital was closing at 3pm so we were really short on time. Thank the Lord the hospital was not that far away. We paid and left for the hospital. I got there at 3pm on the dot so I knew that this could mean no surgery Monday. The lady at the counter looked at me very upset but still took the papers and accepted me for the process. As soon as we started the process just filling out the documents a couple of doctors came from surgery and start commenting how they were converted because they open a lady and all her tumors had disappeared before they even started the surgery. So, they really believed God was with her because the patient had told them, and they did not believe enough to do a sonogram. After this I was taken into another area to take my vitals and blood and the lady started humming the baby’s Christian song I would sing to my kids when I was putting them to bed. She even talks to my husband about her family’s faith without us even asking. After this we wait a long while in the waiting area for the last process to answer quite a few questions with a nurse about our medical history. While waiting I was called by my pastor at the time and I was offered to be baptized on Sunday and I agreed, I said “that I would be honored.” Apparently, my mother in law had called him regarding my circumstances and this made him consider me to be baptized before I had finished my baptism classes. I was honored. I had been reading so much about Jesus and healing that I knew I needed to find out more and if that meant getting baptized I was in. I was experiencing something in faith that I had never lived. I felt that God was with me in every part of my process. For the first time I was feeling His faithfulness. I was understanding what trusting in the almighty God was all about. I was being transformed inside out. I was feeling Him and when I would tell others my testimonies I would know He was there. I knew in my new love for God I had to testify, and I was doing this. In this book that I got I was reading that whole week before I got baptized the promises of healing. The one that got my attention was the woman with the blood disease because I had always bled 20 days or more a month due to certain condition I had. So, when I kept reading this woman touch Jesus cloth and got healed through her faith. I said to God all I need is to touch your cloth and I shall be healed. SO, this happened as soon as I was getting baptized that Sunday morning before my operation on Monday. The baptism was something so radical. I was prayed over by 4 to 6 elders before they sent me to my water baptism. When the elders stopped praying I was already feeling fire in my neck. When the pastor submerged me in the waters I felt my tumor being burned and at the same time I could see Jesus garment and I touched it. I knew at that second, I had been healed. I went through the process of medical treatments and radiation for my family. I know it was God who truly healed me that day. God I am so thankful, and I praise the Lord for his grace in my life. I used to be a person full of hate and emptiness. I am so thankful God has transformed me supernaturally into this loving and caring individual.

I am so thankful that all my medical expenses were covered by my new medical insurance. We had recently bought a house and the medical expenses reached close to 50,000.00 and were all covered by my new medical insurance as a new employee in a company. I know this was all God. I praise the Lord for His love for our family. He covered everything before, during, and after all medical treatments. Our home was safe and our family financially secured.