Intimate letter to Abba

Abba I am here writing to You to tell you how impressed we are by your masterpiece. To look at your dusk and to look at you dawn, and its majestic colors just fills our hearts with joy. The time spent in prayer, the time spent in reading your word has transformed our thinking. My family is blessed to know you and to seek you daily. Can’t wait to see the fruits in everyone’s intimate relationship with you.

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This season I started to notice how my heart is seeking to love you and to thank you for everything you do daily for our family and our walk of faith. Abba you picked me before the world was created. Lord you knew me from the time I was being formed in my mother’s wound. Even when my mother and my father considered terminating my life you had called me and had a wonderful plan for my life (Isaiah 49:1).

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You say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and even before I knew who my Father is, You covered me under your wings (Isaiah 54:17). My mother and my father had to cancel the abortion because You my Abba had better plans for your servant (Psalm 27:10). Thank you, Father that I now see what is to have a thankful heart. I feel in my inner most being to thank you every day that no matter what my parents did, I was loved by my Father in heaven way before I was conceived (Isaiah 54:8). Now at your feet meditating on your word and your truth I can see all the times you chose a better life for me. Thank you Abba for the truth revealed at your feet (Isaiah 48:17).

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I moved to Las Vegas, Nevada when I was young and stupid and made many poor choices and you still covered me under your wings (Psalm 91:1). I still see all the times you called me to align my life with your purpose for my life and I just was too blind to see beyond my self-pity. Thank you for bringing my life out of the pit of depression, anxiety, loneliness, and chaos (Psalm 103:4). Nobody knew how deeply hurt I was, my heart was so numb. I can see now how hurt people keep hurting others around them without even noticing it (Proverbs 17:22). I remember the day I left the front door open to my apartment, I lived next to the gate where everyone enters and leaves the community daily. I slept with that door open all night long and my purse was next to the front door. Nothing happened! Why? You Abba Father, You covered me and kept me safe (Proverbs 18:10 CJB). I remember the day “my dream guy” asked me to get married in a drive by church in Las Vegas and you placed in my heart’s understanding “this is not the time, the place, or the guy.” Abba I can see it now, you showed up every time I needed you, even in the worst choices I made, you were there to carry me back to your side (Isaiah 43:19). Deep down inside all I wanted was real love and acceptance that this world was unable to give me. I always seemed to know that I needed to pray and I did, even in my worst situations I prayed, I knew having you in my life was necessary. All that time praying without even knowing how to speak to you, you listened and you took care of me. First of all thank you for helping me find You so I could be healed and transformed through the love of family. I found it Abba, thank you because I found the love of my life, I found the family that filled every void I carried for so long, thank you Abba. I found the people that deserve all my time and energy to build them up to understand that they are loved, not by me alone, but by You. You are the Alpha and the Omega. You are omnipresent, omniscient, the God who heals, the God who gives peace that surpasses all earthly understanding, You are the Holy One, You are the creator, You are the ultimate creative genius on earth and in the heavens.

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Lord, I want to be your servant until my last breath. I wish to ask you before I go:

Did I helped woke up the souls that you needed to be awaken so the truth of your love and your ways would disperse across the world?

Was I your living walking testimony each and every day?

Did I do what you sent me to do in this time on earth?

Did I feed enough lives?

Please pray with me today,

Thank you, Father for a new day where I take a new breath and I am able to listen to your birds sing, I can see your butterflies, I can see your dawn, I can see your beautiful skies, I can see your care, your love for me and my family. Here I am Father, a new day awaits, may I be able to listen to your still voice, your servant awaits. Amen.

In Jesus name we pray.

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Thankfulness = Overflow

Angels are praising God all day with music and exalting His name. God loves to be worshiped and He also loves to be admired. To know the character of God and to go deeper in relationship with Him is so necessary. Imagine how beautiful it would be to see legions of angels singing to the Lord.When we worship in church together the feeling of His tangible love, that we get through the Holy Spirit is so overwhelming, can’t wait to see and be part of heavens worship. All in good time.

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Now, as I explain all this, I realized how important being thankful towards God is. When we usually pray, we just ask for things without really thinking how and if it even makes sense asking for whatever we are praying for. After asking, seeking, and knocking on God’s door of blessings, love, miracles, and provisions for years I can definitely say that when we have a promise in The Holy Bible that “God will give us the desires of our hearts,” it really means that He will align our hearts to His purpose for us and then, just then, He will start giving us the desires of our hearts. I have seen people receiving from our father without really aligning with His purpose because that is the Good Good Father that He is. It is awesome to receive good gifts from our Father in heaven. Now when those blessings align with the will of God over our lives it feels like an achievement and not necessary a momentary delight. We should be thankful for knowing that God gave us a promise and He is a God of YES and AMEN and never changes what He has promise. The important thing is we have to seek to find those promises. Seeking means that we have to go deeper reading and studying the word of God. We also have to ask for them without ceasing. There are more than 8,000 promises waiting for us to decide to meditate and believe in them and make them ours for the benefit of our family.

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I remember very far away from me today how I used to think and feel all the time. I was always thinking about the worse outcomes in every life choice. Always expecting to make the worst choices, always thinking I was not good enough, several times it got so bad I wanted life to end, I hated every person I should love, admire and respect. Through this rough time in my life I hurt every person around me. I had been in a self-destructive mindset for years on end. I had been through many traumatic experiences and became an enemy of God from a very young age. Every day, I thought it was God that caused my demise. Now looking back, I see I could have made better life choices for myself, I chose the wrong path, or did I? God always has a purpose for our lives, sometimes we have to go through deserts in order to admire the oasis at the end of that struggle. I am falling more and more in love with my heavenly Father, Abba. I can see how our Father in heaven keeps caring for me and my family. My self-destructive mindset has left me, when the old thoughts try to come back and taunt me, I know that it’s not what represents me today, so I am able to just ignore and go back to my identity in God. When those thought patterns come back, I just say to myself:

  1. I am a child of God. (Ephesians 1:5)
  2. I am seated in heavenly places (thanks to the grace of Jesus Christ). (Ephesians 1:10)
  3. I am coheir with Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:17)
  4. I am redeemed. (Deuteronomy 24:18)
  5. I am loved. (1 John 4:8)
  6. I am blessed to know who my Father is. (John 1:12)
  7. I am the head and not the tail. (Colossians 2:9-10)
  8. I feel complete and no longer empty. (Ephesians 1:23)

I hope this can be of great help to anyone struggling with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, or self-destructive monologues. Remember I used to be there all the time, I just choose love daily in God. I ask Him to change me daily and help me walk in love. This mindset happen after years of seeking His truth for my life, sometimes without even knowing it. God placed key people in my life to help transform my life. Pray and ask to change for the better and He will help you. Understanding who our Father is and what He has done for us is so important to be set free from bondage in our faith, to be able to acknowledge that we can live with the mentality of reigning in peace “on earth as it is in heaven.” (Matthew 6)

I can see and feel a daily transformation taking place deep within me that changes the way my family operates. This is a change that it’s a daily choice to choose love over everything else that comes to mind. I will my desires to do what God has placed in my heart and my thoughts. I know now that my thoughts are not His thoughts and my ways are not His ways. So, I now know that most of my radical ideas are all him. He now places thoughts of love for others around me and I send them messages or go visit them. This is how our walk eventually should be at Jesus’ feet, to bless one another, love one another as He ask us to do. Now the key to do exactly how our Father in heaven has instructed starts from living from thanksgiving perspective. How do we live from a thanksgiving perspective? Well we start saying thank you to the Lord for everything we have received from Him and everything He has done for us from the beginning of time to make us part of this time and space. This thanksgiving should be part of our daily lives at all times. His freedom, His grace, His Holy Spirit, His love is all for the praise of his glory. The key to live in His overflow of love and faith is to thank Him at all times every single day.

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Therefore accept one another, just as Christ also accepted you, to the glory of God. (Romans 15:7)

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his possession, so that you may proclaim the praises, of the one who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. (1Peter 2:9)

Please pray with me today,

God we boldly come to the throne of your grace for assistance in our thoughts and behavior. Please lord help us to quiet any self-destructive thoughts that do not represent your love for us. Lord cancel every thought with truth spoked deep within our hearts understanding. May the love of Jesus overwhelm our minds, body, and spirit today. In Jesus name. Amen.

God loves you and so do I.

Choose love daily, trust the Lord and do not rely on your own understanding. (Proverbs) God has a better way than our ways. He opens doors that no man can shut, yet he also closes doors that no man can open. We have to just trust that His ways are way better than ours. Our mind is so small compared to His.  (Isaiah) Trust in God, have faith.

Believing = Receiving

I need to tell you a beautiful story. Now this story is not just a story, this is the adventure part of my walk with God.

Coming from being an enemy of God, like the song says His reckless love left the 99 to seek me and find me and bring me back to His kingdom purpose.

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This walk has been for the past 11 years since I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I have been reading his bible since 2010. Today on October 27, 2018 I can say that I work daily on understanding His word and His promises. I have experienced His love, His peace, His joy, His goodness, His faithfulness, and today He confirm His security for me and for my future generations.

Today I went to take my well behaved and diligent children to the park. At this park we had just arrived. I was seeking God’s nature to see if I was lucky enough to find a butterfly’s cocoon for a picture. My girls were enjoying some swings in the distance and this man came up to them through a hole in the fence. I noticed this move and immediately headed to them. As soon as I got there the girls told me the man had ask them from the fencing to get him his glasses and to bring the glasses over. As soon as this man sees me walking towards him, he started telling me how he was just asking the girls if he had left his sunglasses in that area. This was not true because my kids don’t have a reason to make up what he said. So, I just said fine and did like if I was just walking to exercise and approach the car and took a picture of the license plate. At this exact same moment, a beautiful woman God had already highlighted to me when I got to the park walk up to me and another lady that notice the situation and immediately approached me and I ask her if she had seen that man walking the area before. She confirms she had not. This other lady God made walk all the way over from the other side of the park started to tell me how she is the leader of a group for fitness at the park and she knows the ones that can fix the fencing immediately and that the kids are safe because everyone in the park knows each other. So incredible how I was never afraid for my children, but I was for other children in the future. Why? I now know. I now see God’s truth over the worlds truth. I have been learning a few promises from the book of Joshua chapter 1. The most important one is that he gives you all place that your feet touches and no one can come against you because God is with us. He calls us to be courageous. This is what I am walking in a faith that believes His word over what the world wants us to believe. Paul says that we have to be transform by the renewal of our minds. He also explains in the New Testament that we should not conform to the ways of this world and that this world teaches us fear. The word says that Perfect Love cast out fear. I have been perfecting my love walk because I have been loving those who hurt me, those who persecute me, those who are poor and unwanted. God knows as long as I get an opportunity to love on someone, He calls me to I do it, I do, no questions ask. This is what happens. God’s favor was upon my family because he brought these 2 remarkable women of God. This lady the one God had highlighted from the beginning that came walking from really far away, being a doctor and having a hurt foot. God place her in my way, so I can know that another woman of God is using her time to bless each and every person that crosses her path. I told her how powerful the presence of the Lord was with her there. I explain how powerful her service was to me and my walk-in faith. Basically, told her where I came from: “Panic attacks always thinking the worst could happen to my kids.” Now I am a lion for Christ always serving putting His kingdom comes 1st (Matthew 6) and loving and trusting my kids to his powerful, loving, and graceful hands.

Please pray with me today…

God, we come boldly to the throne of your grace knowing you are with us and that you comfort us with your word and your truth revealed through your Holy Spirit. I place each and every person I love in your hands knowing Psalm 91 security, blessings, and promises are upon them. Thank you, Jesus for your freedom and the ability to have eyes to see and ears to hear in faith today and forever. Amen.

Idols

In the ancient times, idols were considered statues made of different materials like mud, gold, or silver. People would take time and adore them and pray to them. To this day some people still have these idols. The incredible thing is that we could give the place of an idol to many other things.

Entertainment and psychological analysis has been taking over the world. According to many psychological studies everything can be turn into an obsession, therefore becoming an idol in our lives. You can name a subject and there is a self help or dummies book or an online course to help you master the area you want to master in your daily lives.

The reality is that we are all made with different capabilities. What if you are trying to master something God wants to help you let go and let Him take over. He can have a better way than the way we developed in our own understanding.

When my first daughter arrived I remember all the books and online articles I read to be the best mom I could be. I wanted her to have the best of everything. I needed to know I was completely right, in every decision I made over her life. At the time I did not have a personal relationship with God. My thoughts when she arrived was “This is a small beautiful child that depends on me and does not come with instructions.”

Its easy to fall into these situations. All we end up doing is making an idol in our lives. Something that takes all of our daily time, effort, and energy in thought, could become your idol.

God gave us an awesome understanding of this when we kept seeking him in prayer. Our eldest daughter went through bullying to the extreme. That’s when God taught us that we had no control over her life. We were going to have to trust God with her life and decisions from now on. He closed all doors to be able to help our daughter on our own terms. Then we submitted in prayer a door open wide to get to educate the other kids parents on treating a girl with respect. It was a family mediation at a police station. These individuals were really afraid to be there due to a grade school incident. As a family that works in entertainment, the priority on moral values in this household was limited. I am sure this mediation helped all the kids involved understand how to treat each other within boundaries and respect.

My husband and I learned once more the power of prayer. We keep praying because we understand that our kids needs are all placed in our Creator’s hands. No need to obsess about their well being, just need to place everything in prayer and petition at all times. Let go and let God is something that my husband and I are adopting day by day. Oh and it is a work in progress. Sometimes we fall off the wagon of faith and just try to get back up as soon as possible.

These days Idols can be anything at all. Televisions shows, cooking, tablets, cell phones, facebook, instagram, youtube, laptops, cars, hobbies, or movies consuming so much time in a person’s life that they don’t have time to remain still and quiet to seek peace, love, joy, goodness, and so much more in their daily lives.

We don’t have it mastered yet and I know that its on purpose so we decide to submit in prayer and petition daily every decision and every life we care for. Only God has a better plan then the one we have. God can make everything better daily. To live in His perfect peace should be our daily goal.

Pray with me today…

Jesus bring your perfect peace to every thought and action today. Help me submit all my thoughts to you and your will in our lives.

God loves you and so do I.

I forgive you. I prefer healing.

I remember all the things I WANTED TO SAY.  The incredible part of all the things I have written before this one, does not represent the woman God has transformed me into, day in and day out for years. I know the weight of all the words we choose to place in a journal, diary, a piece paper, or even type into a computer screen. I remember burning many journals because I was ashamed when writing about my way of life and my thoughts. For many years I lived in a very dark place. My family did see my wrong actions but never tried to figure out the root of the problem. All were pretty quick to correct me, but never taking any time to really know me. If you get to know your child they will open up to talk to you about anything.  I spend most of my adolescence with suicidal thoughts. No one knew! Not even my best of friends. My closest relatives only smelled the alcohol and knew that I was hanging out at all hours of the night without really having the age for all of it. No one intervene. No one asked how they could help. They were all quick to tell me how wrong and bad my actions were. No one took the time to know me, no one really knew how to reach me and analize what was going on in my mind. The power struggle to make me behave without knowing me was always in action. Please if you are young and going through suicidal thoughts, please talk about it! Please do not hide your feelings! It is always necessary to make your feelings known. If your parents are not willing to be there, talk to God and ask him to guide you to a youth group in a church were you can get friends that will support you and the counseling you may need with a pastor. I did not believe in any of this. Now I can say that it does work.

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I am sure that with the power of love everything would have gone in a very different direction. I can see that love has the ability to cancel all wrongs. The society we live is all about pride. That is the household I lived in. Pride was the most important element present. My mother never could accept her hurts and I could never accept to her how much I needed help. We were tip towing around each other and in silence, just hurting one another.

My house hold for a long time did not know God’s true love and wisdom. I am now sure that when we submit to the Spirit of Truth we will be able to know how to deal with any situation that arises. God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are to liberate anyone who seeks with a sincere heart. It says as a promise in Psalm 91:14-16 “I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

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Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD your God has commanded you, so that your days may be long and that it may go well with you in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

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Honor your father and mother, which is the first commandment with a promise, so that it may go well with you and that you may have a long life in the land.

I know its hard to honor parents when they are not honoring you. Please do not belittle your faith and your love for God by acting in anger towards them. Parents sometimes are so caught up in their own life mistakes and bad decisions they cannot consider your needs. Give them mercy and pray for them non stop. God will bless you in ways you have never been blessed before.

I will live to love no matter the “humiliation” that is basically what Jesus did for all while he was alive and worst of all when he was being humiliated as the scum of the earth. We all know he was clean of sin and the true royalty of heaven on earth. What did we do? What are we capable of? Why can’t we just choose love? The absence of love got him on that cross!

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.  Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. – 1 John 4:7-8

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Please pray with me today…

Jesus with all my heart I ask for full reveal of truth in the hearts of every member in our household.

Holy Spirit come and make your home inside of each individual in our household. Please convict us of any wrongdoing and maintain us real an accountable with one another.

Than you God for your grace and your love that you pour into our family daily.

In the name of Jesus bless each and every person with your wisdom, understanding, and your knowledge.

Amen.

God loves you and so do I.

Your real 911 emergency contact…

Walk secure.

In 2010 I took my daughter to a Christian’s Book Shop and I asked her to take something she liked for her room. At the time she was about 2 years old. Out of all the beautiful and fun things she could have chosen, she chose a Psalm 91 scroll to place on a wall in her room. At this time, I was going through a cancer diagnostic, I call it “my way to faith process” and I needed all the encouragement I could get. To have my beautiful daughter decide on something so different than what the common child would consider fun or cool, I saw God’s purpose. We started to read this Psalm 91 every night because she would always ask me to read it for her. After a few weeks of reading Psalm 91 daily, I can testify to one of God’s promises in this Psalm 91 about covering us securely under his wings. At the time that this all happened I had no faith, I was starting to learn faith.

Before getting to school one day, my little one had a doctor’s visit and this made her late to school that day. When we arrived at the parking lot where she was to be dropped off. We were the only car there. This parking lot has a small entrance that is also used as the exit. It is approximately 50 feet away from where you drop off the kids. I got out of the car and a beautiful SUV parked blocking the entrance/exit of this parking lot. I was standing in front of my car when this big, very underdressed, scruffy looking man was coming towards us. I did not know if to go, and get my daughter, or if I would have the time to get back in the car and lock it. I knew this man did not have the best intentions. So, I was quite nervous, and God let me burst saying outload that I could listen but no one else could hear the 1stverse of Psalm 91: “The one who lives under the protection of the Most High dwells in the shadow of the Almighty.” As soon as I said these words, the man that was coming straight to us just stopped 10 to 15 feet away from us. God gave me the courage to say (still nervous) with authority “What can I do for you, Sir?” The man looked disoriented and started looking around and then a few moments later asked me: “Do you know this direction?” Everyone knows the direction he asked for. I knew he was not there for directions but still told him quickly to keep going forward that he would find the road he was looking for. Glory be to God this man turned around and left! You would ask: Why? I just know that I can live to testify that Holy Spirit used my mind and mouth to reveal a Bible verse and it protected my beautiful girl and me. My favorite verse says on John 8:32 “and the truth shall set you free.” Psalm 91 is just a little part of the word of God that has been so powerful transforming my whole family’s life.

8 years later one of our leaders taught us about Psalm 91:1 being the true 911 emergency contact for every believer. I had the opportunity to share this testimony with many people and I know it has been a very powerful resource to help change them and revitalize their lives. Don’t ever forget that to connect, you only need, Psalm 91 and say out loud verse 1, and that is how you get 911 “Believer’s emergency contact number.”

 

Please pray with me today:

Jesus we thank you for opening our spiritual eyes and ears to hear you and see that you are with us.

Lord thank you for increasing our faith and our love for one another.

Holy Spirit I thank you for revealing the word we read and make it ours.

In Jesus name. Amen.

 

God loves you and so do I.