In 2000 my angel encounter

Thank you, Abba, for your revelation. Thank You, Abba, for the Spirit of truth. Thank you, Abba, because you keep teaching how you loved me before the foundations of the earth (Ephesians). You keep teaching me that your love is an everlasting love (Isaiah). I keep seeing your fingerprints in so many difficult situations in my past. You always knew who I was and were I would falter and You, Abba, always gives us a way out. What an amazing way out you gave me at one time. Please treat everyone with love and respect at all times. Please be aware that we can encounter angels and not know it (Hebrew 13:2). I experienced this encounter when I was only 19 years old.

Yes, I was raised in a Catholic household, but our faith was just based on praying the Father’s prayer every night. A long time ago I started loving the occult and horror movies.  I was the one to invite all the girls for a slumber party and to have a Halloween night of horror movies. All my friends would say that I was so into the dark-side that it was freaky. I met friends that set me in a darker path to witchcraft and divination. The rabbit hole was very deep and easy to keep going and going not noticing how dark the path was getting. This was the worst time of my life almost all my relationships were toxic because I was toxic. I was full of so much hatred from my past I had no value for myself or anyone around me. I am sure the time spent going deeper into these practices made everything aggravate to the point of constant car crashes, toxic love life, self-hatred, suicidal thoughts, and so much more. Young and stupid as my husband says. I say God has a plan for everything that he permits in our lifetime. Everything that has been used to damage my faith in any way I can now say God is using it as a testimony to break free another life from despair. I know what it is like to walk in despair and no one present me to Jesus. God knows who to call that will be so intertwine with others needs that will never say no to save another soul from the pit, like he saved mine.

At this time in my walk of life, I worked at a bookstore. It was a tiny store and in the tourism area, so it was not that popular. I got to read a lot, especially on Sundays. I remember a Sunday afternoon, I was bored and wanted to find another book to read, this day I considered opening a book that was about Satanism. Told you! The rabbit hole was getting deeper and deeper into the dark-side. At that same moment that I was going to open the book a customer comes in. This customer was a very big man, blond, blue eyes, so perfectly looking. He spoke English and said that he was a Mormon Pastor from Roosevelt Roads (or so he explained). Well one thing led to another he kept talking to me about his ministry in Puerto Rico at the base, we laugh and joked a bit in the conversation. He was mesmerizing and so incredibly authentic. I had never met a man so poised and well dress and this nice. After he stop talking, he went to look at some books. He bought just one pretty quickly after the conversation. Then said thank you and left, he also had left the book on the counter. As I see it, I take the book and go after him to give it to him and he said: “No, that book is for you, you are light so don’t read what you were going to read, read this instead and let your light shine.” As soon as I see the title of the book, I had in my hand a King James Holy Bible. I was a bit unsettled, but I felt especial at the same time for this man saw something in me I could not see. This man represented the love of Abba in a time I could not begin to comprehend it. I tried to read the bible but I did not understand it so I did not persist. When I originally chose to read the satanic book, I had already felt a lot of discomfort regarding that decision. I did not open it, not even to just look over it. As soon as I was going to start reading it this man arrived. He was so mesmerizing I could not read. I remember He took all my attention away from the book as soon as he entered the book store. To have such a deep encounter with someone just made me automatically put the Satanic book back and started to read the Holy Bible the guy left. The gentleman wrote a message in the bible that repeated what he had said, to stay in the light. I am sure with all my heart that perfect looking man was an angel of God. Oh my God! I think it could have been Archangel Michael (He is also blond and has blue eyes.) We will never know who this man was but I know my Abba Father in heaven sent him to avoid me going way too deep into the darkness I was sinking myself into.

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Psalm 91: 11-12 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

“Thank you Jesus for all the times you use your angels to keep us from stumbling. Thank you Abba for your everlasting love. Thank you because your love, your trust, your truth never wavers. Thank you Abba for being the light of the world. I am so thankful I had to PRAISE.”

Jesus saved me and made me a new creation, the old is gone and the new is amazing. I was actually remembering the time I always had something horrible happening like panic attacks, anxiety, depression, hate, suicidal thoughts, or fear. I was always feeling something bad was about to happen as soon as everything got quiet and nice. I am so thankful for peace that surpasses all understanding. I thank God for covering my thoughts with His thoughts, my needs with His needs, my love with His love, my dreams completely align to his will. I thank the Lord for peace that surpasses all understanding. To have peace in my mind is such freedom. For someone thinking all the time: “what is the point of this life? I don’t see anything of meaning in my life.” “The holy bible is just a fairy tale invented by men.” Oh my God I could go on with all the suicidal thoughts, but no, thank you. I have a new mind now, as Paul says in the New Testament “we have the mind of Christ.” I can say for sure that we can have it if we choose to sow into our faith, walking, to own it.

May God bring you the hunger for His word and the truth of His salvation.

If you have never accepted to have a relationship with Jesus, I can tell you how to start.

Repeat with me:

Jesus, I invite you into my heart, make your home inside of me. I repent of all of my sins, I want to be your servant today and always. In Jesus name. Amen.

If you did accept Jesus for the first time, try to find a bible study group to further your relationship with Him. If you can’t because you are in a part of the world it is not possible, don’t worry that God will give you the knowledge and the wisdom to understand (ask Jesus for revelation and truth), and ofcourse, buy yourself a Bible. If you can’t please contact me I will find a way to get you one ASAP.

May God bless you with His abundance of grace, love, and favor in your walk with Him.

Why I chose darkness?

Early in my life, I remember seeing cartoons of healing miracles performed by the Virgin Mary of Fatima through some little kids. I remember telling my mother that I wanted to heal people like those kids. She said to me with such conviction that since I was a good girl I could probably get to see the Virgin Mary at some point and I could get that ability from her. After this information I could only imagine that lady creeping up in my room at night, so I would always go and sneak in my mother’s bedroom because I was sure I was seeing things at night move in my room. This went on most of my formative toddler and middle school years. Being brought up as a “Catholic” I would only visit the church if I stayed for the weekend with my grandparents or on especial events like baptisms or weddings. I do remember my mother praying The Lord’s Prayer with me every night, this was the limited information I got on a relationship with God.

To summarize my “bible study” when I was just a child was:

-Church was visited once in blue moon or especial events. Oh, and when you visit ask God for one thing you really want. (“Like a genie in a bottle.”)

-Virgin Mary can visit kids and she has all the power to heal so she is the one to give it to us kids to perform.

-Pray the Lord’s prayer every night.

-Once a month you would get light a candle to a saint for a prayer request. My mom’s favorite was saint Jude. She would purchase this candle at the supermarket. I did get to do this a few times when I had my own apartment.

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Growing up my grandmother loved to talk about the paranormal activity she experienced in her house due to living right in front of a cemetery when she was growing up. Her mother was a spiritist and she dabbled in the occult. So, the paranormal activity had nothing to do with the cemetery, I am sure of this. This type of conversations just freaked me out even more. I was so afraid of the dark when I was just a small child. I remember having horrible night terrors. The idea of crossing the hallway to my mother’s bedroom got to be torture for years.

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Fast forwarding a few years I went through a couple of bad experiences that no little girl should ever go through and this really change my love for God. Not that I had established a real love for someone I barely knew existed. I knew more about the virgin Mary and paranormal activity than I knew about Jesus. So sad, I know! When these incidents happened, and my family did not listen due to the family name and their status I was really hurt. I understood that God was never with me and I thought by then, that there could not be a God. After all the emotional abandonment and the disregard for my trauma I grew bitter and hated the world more and more by the minute. I decided to turn my world into a party non-stop, so I could anesthetize my pain. I had this really “cool and awesome life” or so that is how I showed all my friends and family but deep down inside hate, depression, sadness, and loneliness were eating me up inside. I needed to take control of my life, so I decided to dabble in the occult. I started with a “Ouija Board” and ended up in “white witchcraft” let me tell you there is no white or black, witchcraft is witchcraft. I decided I would start reading tarot cards and got really good at it.

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At a very young age I decided to have a very deep relationship with this person. As soon as this relationship turned sour I wanted to control it. I did a spell to make us closer. That night after the moonlight, the candles, the time, and the words he calls me and tells me that his car and all that was in it was stolen. I remember crying like a baby. His car was new, and everything cool he owned for entertainment was in it, including a work laptop. I got him into so much trouble. I felt so guilty that I told him what I had done. This just created the unhealthiest relationship ever lived. We were always together because he depended on me to drive him everywhere. He was so upset and unhappy it was depressing to see. This just led us to crash and burn years later after much emotional abuse. To this day I can say that all the years subjected to witchcraft my life was unstable, depressive, and so empty. I could be surrounded by many friends and having “fun” and still feel a void that friends, alcohol, or parties could never fill.

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Years went by and changes came, I got tired of doing the same thing over and over again. God was ready to work with my heart by then. I remember starting to sing a song that was in my mind for a long time when I was alone. I had heard this song at my high school graduation years before I started singing it and it had stuck in my head. The high school graduation was a Catholic mass, so, this was a song of praise to the Lord. I did not know about praise or God being moved in praise. My mind would always go back to that song. So, I kept singing it when alone. Now I see that God was doing it all for me. I did not even know how powerful His praise could be. So, several years in this bad situation I would open my catholic school bible and ask God to lead me to what he wanted to tell me. If he was real? This was 3 different times in 3 different years. The page that would always come up in this old bible, never used, and never marked was:

DEUTERONOMY+18-10-14Deuteronomy 18: 10-14:   “No one among you is to sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, practice divination, tell fortunes, interpret omens, practice sorcery, cast spells, consult a medium or a spiritist, or inquire of the dead. Everyone who does these acts is detestable to the Lord, and the Lord your God is driving out the nations before you because of these detestable acts. You must be blameless before the Lord your God. Though these nations you are about to drive out listen to fortune-tellers and diviners, the Lord your God has not permitted you to do this.”

The third year, the third time, trust me, I freaked out and I definitely got the message. That same day I decided to trashed thousands of dollars in witchcraft books and collectable tarot cards. I never looked back. I did not start reading the bible right away, but I still was starting to see changes in my life. God, year after year, was working on the life he wanted me to live, not the one I was living. One night after 3 years without a special person in my life, I prayed to God. I decided to scream because I was so angry at him. I told him that deep down inside I had always been a good girl and that it was time, I deserved that good guy that would never let me down. That same night because of a really bad experience with a girl at church my “especial guy” decided to ask God in prayer for a girl that had nothing to do with church. That night I met my husband. We have been together ever since. His family was the one to open the door to know the love of God. I thank God every day for his way to love us even when we don’t know the power of his love in our lives. He keeps seeking us. It’s our wrong attitude and decisions that keep pushing Him away. Choose to put him first by talking to God like if he was sitting next to you. Apologize for whatever wrong you may have done and invite Him into your life. Oh the beauty you can experience at his feet will surpass anything lived up to now.

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Please, pray with me today:

Thank you, God for truth being spoken to our hearts.

Thank you, Jesus for taking away our heart of stone and giving us a new heart of flesh ready to receive a new spirit in us.

Thank you for your wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, revealed each day to our hearts.

Thank you for renewing our strength and our love to bless others and bring love to those who need it.

In Jesus name. Amen.

God loves you and so do I.