The Way in His plans

Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.

He is the Way so He knows the best available option. Ask! Seek!

I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.

Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.

Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.

Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.

He said GO, and we WENT. Traveling with my girls starting Covid season, trusting Jesus. We all know He is faithful. Believing Psalm 91 promises all the way.

God has the ONE for you

On December 25 2005 , I felt so depressed, so alone,and so tired from all the toxic relationships I had permitted myself to have for years. This day was a fork on the road, I felt it was enough of TOXIC and I decided to express my anger to God. I told God: “I deserved good people in my life since I was a good child.” I kept saying some really rough words to God in my anger and frustration. I was crying and really pleading to be heard.

That same night I wrote a friendly e-mail to five different people men and women on a “social media platform.” It was actually a Blogging/Messenger website. I saw their stories, blogs, pictures and decided to see who seem to walk towards love and family. It was decided, I needed new positive people in my life. Amazing enough, that same night, out of all the people I contacted, only one answered, MY NOW HUSBAND OF 13 years.

Something cool about this testimony is that my husband that same day did the same prayer in a very different way from His side of the world.

Through testimonies like this one Jesus can make it possible for you to experience this truth that sets us free from unbelief.

🙏Let me pray for you…

May the Lord open the way to meet that God fearing person in your life that will bring love, transformation, faith, hope, and peace. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

💞Jesus loves you and so do I.

Access the Kingdom daily

What are you believing God to be?

God’s promises include us walking in His Love.

God’s promises include us walking in His goodness.

God’s promises include us walking in His faithfulness.

God’s promises include us walking in His joy.

God’s promises include living in abundance.

God has promises all over His awesome Word (Holy Bible) to bless our way and to prosper our life the way only He can make our soul prosper.

So now, the question would be:

How do I access this promises?

This promises require obedience to God. How?

Jesus came and explained the Kingdom of God…

Repent every day because we are sinners in need of a savior and only Jesus can work on our character for daily transformation. Amazing! God created the moon, the stars, the earths vegetation, animals, all creation in 7 days, yet He decides to work on us daily. We are all His unfinished masterpieces.

What gives God access to our life daily?

We have to decide to tell Jesus daily that we need Him and to repent of our sins to enter the Kingdom of God as a Child of God. Jesus gave us access to the Kingdom by His sacrifice on the cross of Calvary. The Blood of the Lamb (true passover Lamb) was Jesus that took away the sins of the world. We have to decide if we want to believe this and live a life full of amazing adventures with God. As you read your Holy Bible you will see. God permits the testing of our faith through afflictions, yet we do not live our whole lives in afflictions. Its important to God to test our faith to know is we are willing to remain faithful to God’s ways and not to the world’s ways.

To remain in this Kingdom we daily repent of our sins, spend time reading the Holy Bible, and live thanking God for the good and the bad in prayer. When we pray we should pray in private for everyone and everything that weights in our hearts. God wants to converse with us. When we pray, He is expecting a relationship. So, speak to God, how you would a trusted friend or family member.

Prayer for you today…

🌈 Jesus loves you, Jesus loves you, Jesus loves you. God wants to amaze you with His goodness, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, self-control. Give yourself a chance to experience what it is to be molded by your Creator’s love. Whenever we access God’s kingdom we get to live from this character traits that only point that you clothed yourself with Jesus righteousness that morning. ☀️

May you reign in life at the feet of Jesus. To submit to our Father in heaven means living in peace that surpasses all understanding. Careful who you share your life with, their words could determine life or death daily. 🔥

Dwelling = enter His rest

In the beginning Adam and Eve through sin seeking their own (earthly, limited) KNOWLEDGE broke the intimate relationship God wanted to have with all mankind. In the garden, before their sin, Adam and Eve lived in an intimate relationship with God, where He walked with them in the garden. This garden was created for all of us to have access to an intimate relationship with our Creator. Yet after sin came into the world, access to have intimacy with God was no longer available.

What would change this circumstances?

God made us with the purpose of relationship not to manipulate us or use us. God did not want to be an angry distant God. God wanted to remain close to you and to participate in our daily tasks and use our talents for His awesome plans on this earth. God wants us to learn how to love Him and learn also to love and serve one another.

This is where relationship with Jesus comes in. All religions ask you for works to be saved and have “peace.” Yet our true Creator decided to do all the work for us by sending His son to die for our sins (all of them, past and present) to clean us from our fallen world and invite us to connect with Him in intimacy. How? Well you just have to BELIEVE in Jesus Christ. When you decide to BELIEVE this makes you automatically a Child of God, a new creation the old things have gone and the new have come.

When you accept Jesus into your heart you decide to enter the relationship God always wanted you to have with Him. In this relationship He offers many blessings, yet it does come with many tests along the way. The good news is that Jesus died on the cross to bear the burdens of this world for you. In intimacy you can lay down your life for His purpose to be fulfilled and enter a rest that gives you peace in every circumstance.

Praying for you today…

May the blood of the Lamb of God silence the lies of this world today and everyday. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. 💝

☀️Jesus loves you and so do I.🌈

WORDS that build UP

Affirmation is a powerful tool.

Want a better marriage?

Want a better relationship with your children?

Want a better relationship with people?

Love is the key to everyones hearts.

I only wish someone would have told me sooner the power of words in a child’s life. I am just so thankful I know now.

My marriage is taking a much needed “facelift” thanks to the power of words. Daily encouragement through words of affirmation is so powerful.

Lets all use it… be intentional!

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Relationship with Jesus is taking a road of friendship and joy. The way I see this is that when you least expected you are hanging out with Abba and don’t even notice it. I can see beyond my self sufficiency. I can see how much I need Abba now. I need Him to breath, I need Him to think, I need Him to work, I need Him to love, I need Him to laugh, and I also need Him to enjoy everyday.

My kids and I notice Him in everything around us now. We can see Him in a moving car. We can see Him in a homeless person. We can see Him in a sunset or a starry night. We are thanking Him for every opportunity we get to admire His creativity. We are understanding that beyond a friendship with Him is chaos and emptiness. We are understanding that letting go of Abba’s hand means to conform to a world that does not know how to love. Abba is love. We need His love and daily dosage of guidance to live.

I am thankful for every step He has turn in my ways through my life to make me start our homeschool process. Sometimes I just don’t know why He would ask this of me. Many times I am so thankful for the opportunity to see my kids flourish into very capable young girls. I get to teach them how to not only study but be part of a team daily to get stuff done.

I am thankful Abba has been transforming my mind for a long time now to be able to see the blessing in the chaos. I can see how at the end of the day He is the one to organize my schedule perfectly and make me feel as a Super mom. I know that I could never do this without my beautiful loving kids. They are the light of our house. They teach me joy daily. I know, I sure need it, hey! Who does not? Thank You Jesus. 💕

If we let go and let God take the reigns, life becomes fun. Even when you could never imagine yourself having the strength or the patience God is the one to do it all. I know that without Abba I am nothing. He is my patience, He is my reminder, He is my counselor, He is my helper, and so much more.

Pray with me, please…

Abba let me seek you every day with all my heart. Transform my ways to your ways.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Worthy is the blood of the lamb

Good Friday should be a day of remembering what our God did for us in Egypt with the blood of a lamb on door posts. How death passed-over all the Israelites homes only killing the first borns of the Egyptians. Just an example of what was to come through the blood of Jesus.

The blood of the lamb was the start of freedom from slavery in Egypt for the Israelites. So many centuries ago and we are still debating about it. We are honored to know that the God of miracles, signs, and wonders has always wanted to let us know, how much He loves His people. God was willing to kill innocent children to let His people GO. A God of justice and righteousness was willing to shed blood for every soul that He would call His people.

To this day I can see this God that seeks my attention and affection every hour of every day. My soul feels the tug to seek Him and praise Him as well. The love that He gives me to remain in overflow can only come from that secret place that I seek with all my heart. My heart is expectant always!

What about yours?

Matthew 7:7 Seek and you will find…

Thankfulness = Overflow

Angels are praising God all day with music and exalting His name. God loves to be worshiped and He also loves to be admired. To know the character of God and to go deeper in relationship with Him is so necessary. Imagine how beautiful it would be to see legions of angels singing to the Lord.When we worship in church together the feeling of His tangible love, that we get through the Holy Spirit is so overwhelming, can’t wait to see and be part of heavens worship. All in good time.

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Now, as I explain all this, I realized how important being thankful towards God is. When we usually pray, we just ask for things without really thinking how and if it even makes sense asking for whatever we are praying for. After asking, seeking, and knocking on God’s door of blessings, love, miracles, and provisions for years I can definitely say that when we have a promise in The Holy Bible that “God will give us the desires of our hearts,” it really means that He will align our hearts to His purpose for us and then, just then, He will start giving us the desires of our hearts. I have seen people receiving from our father without really aligning with His purpose because that is the Good Good Father that He is. It is awesome to receive good gifts from our Father in heaven. Now when those blessings align with the will of God over our lives it feels like an achievement and not necessary a momentary delight. We should be thankful for knowing that God gave us a promise and He is a God of YES and AMEN and never changes what He has promise. The important thing is we have to seek to find those promises. Seeking means that we have to go deeper reading and studying the word of God. We also have to ask for them without ceasing. There are more than 8,000 promises waiting for us to decide to meditate and believe in them and make them ours for the benefit of our family.

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I remember very far away from me today how I used to think and feel all the time. I was always thinking about the worse outcomes in every life choice. Always expecting to make the worst choices, always thinking I was not good enough, several times it got so bad I wanted life to end, I hated every person I should love, admire and respect. Through this rough time in my life I hurt every person around me. I had been in a self-destructive mindset for years on end. I had been through many traumatic experiences and became an enemy of God from a very young age. Every day, I thought it was God that caused my demise. Now looking back, I see I could have made better life choices for myself, I chose the wrong path, or did I? God always has a purpose for our lives, sometimes we have to go through deserts in order to admire the oasis at the end of that struggle. I am falling more and more in love with my heavenly Father, Abba. I can see how our Father in heaven keeps caring for me and my family. My self-destructive mindset has left me, when the old thoughts try to come back and taunt me, I know that it’s not what represents me today, so I am able to just ignore and go back to my identity in God. When those thought patterns come back, I just say to myself:

  1. I am a child of God. (Ephesians 1:5)
  2. I am seated in heavenly places (thanks to the grace of Jesus Christ). (Ephesians 1:10)
  3. I am coheir with Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:17)
  4. I am redeemed. (Deuteronomy 24:18)
  5. I am loved. (1 John 4:8)
  6. I am blessed to know who my Father is. (John 1:12)
  7. I am the head and not the tail. (Colossians 2:9-10)
  8. I feel complete and no longer empty. (Ephesians 1:23)

I hope this can be of great help to anyone struggling with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, or self-destructive monologues. Remember I used to be there all the time, I just choose love daily in God. I ask Him to change me daily and help me walk in love. This mindset happen after years of seeking His truth for my life, sometimes without even knowing it. God placed key people in my life to help transform my life. Pray and ask to change for the better and He will help you. Understanding who our Father is and what He has done for us is so important to be set free from bondage in our faith, to be able to acknowledge that we can live with the mentality of reigning in peace “on earth as it is in heaven.” (Matthew 6)

I can see and feel a daily transformation taking place deep within me that changes the way my family operates. This is a change that it’s a daily choice to choose love over everything else that comes to mind. I will my desires to do what God has placed in my heart and my thoughts. I know now that my thoughts are not His thoughts and my ways are not His ways. So, I now know that most of my radical ideas are all him. He now places thoughts of love for others around me and I send them messages or go visit them. This is how our walk eventually should be at Jesus’ feet, to bless one another, love one another as He ask us to do. Now the key to do exactly how our Father in heaven has instructed starts from living from thanksgiving perspective. How do we live from a thanksgiving perspective? Well we start saying thank you to the Lord for everything we have received from Him and everything He has done for us from the beginning of time to make us part of this time and space. This thanksgiving should be part of our daily lives at all times. His freedom, His grace, His Holy Spirit, His love is all for the praise of his glory. The key to live in His overflow of love and faith is to thank Him at all times every single day.

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Therefore accept one another, just as Christ also accepted you, to the glory of God. (Romans 15:7)

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his possession, so that you may proclaim the praises, of the one who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. (1Peter 2:9)

Please pray with me today,

God we boldly come to the throne of your grace for assistance in our thoughts and behavior. Please lord help us to quiet any self-destructive thoughts that do not represent your love for us. Lord cancel every thought with truth spoked deep within our hearts understanding. May the love of Jesus overwhelm our minds, body, and spirit today. In Jesus name. Amen.

God loves you and so do I.

Choose love daily, trust the Lord and do not rely on your own understanding. (Proverbs) God has a better way than our ways. He opens doors that no man can shut, yet he also closes doors that no man can open. We have to just trust that His ways are way better than ours. Our mind is so small compared to His.  (Isaiah) Trust in God, have faith.

Why I chose darkness?

Early in my life, I remember seeing cartoons of healing miracles performed by the Virgin Mary of Fatima through some little kids. I remember telling my mother that I wanted to heal people like those kids. She said to me with such conviction that since I was a good girl I could probably get to see the Virgin Mary at some point and I could get that ability from her. After this information I could only imagine that lady creeping up in my room at night, so I would always go and sneak in my mother’s bedroom because I was sure I was seeing things at night move in my room. This went on most of my formative toddler and middle school years. Being brought up as a “Catholic” I would only visit the church if I stayed for the weekend with my grandparents or on especial events like baptisms or weddings. I do remember my mother praying The Lord’s Prayer with me every night, this was the limited information I got on a relationship with God.

To summarize my “bible study” when I was just a child was:

-Church was visited once in blue moon or especial events. Oh, and when you visit ask God for one thing you really want. (“Like a genie in a bottle.”)

-Virgin Mary can visit kids and she has all the power to heal so she is the one to give it to us kids to perform.

-Pray the Lord’s prayer every night.

-Once a month you would get light a candle to a saint for a prayer request. My mom’s favorite was saint Jude. She would purchase this candle at the supermarket. I did get to do this a few times when I had my own apartment.

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Growing up my grandmother loved to talk about the paranormal activity she experienced in her house due to living right in front of a cemetery when she was growing up. Her mother was a spiritist and she dabbled in the occult. So, the paranormal activity had nothing to do with the cemetery, I am sure of this. This type of conversations just freaked me out even more. I was so afraid of the dark when I was just a small child. I remember having horrible night terrors. The idea of crossing the hallway to my mother’s bedroom got to be torture for years.

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Fast forwarding a few years I went through a couple of bad experiences that no little girl should ever go through and this really change my love for God. Not that I had established a real love for someone I barely knew existed. I knew more about the virgin Mary and paranormal activity than I knew about Jesus. So sad, I know! When these incidents happened, and my family did not listen due to the family name and their status I was really hurt. I understood that God was never with me and I thought by then, that there could not be a God. After all the emotional abandonment and the disregard for my trauma I grew bitter and hated the world more and more by the minute. I decided to turn my world into a party non-stop, so I could anesthetize my pain. I had this really “cool and awesome life” or so that is how I showed all my friends and family but deep down inside hate, depression, sadness, and loneliness were eating me up inside. I needed to take control of my life, so I decided to dabble in the occult. I started with a “Ouija Board” and ended up in “white witchcraft” let me tell you there is no white or black, witchcraft is witchcraft. I decided I would start reading tarot cards and got really good at it.

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At a very young age I decided to have a very deep relationship with this person. As soon as this relationship turned sour I wanted to control it. I did a spell to make us closer. That night after the moonlight, the candles, the time, and the words he calls me and tells me that his car and all that was in it was stolen. I remember crying like a baby. His car was new, and everything cool he owned for entertainment was in it, including a work laptop. I got him into so much trouble. I felt so guilty that I told him what I had done. This just created the unhealthiest relationship ever lived. We were always together because he depended on me to drive him everywhere. He was so upset and unhappy it was depressing to see. This just led us to crash and burn years later after much emotional abuse. To this day I can say that all the years subjected to witchcraft my life was unstable, depressive, and so empty. I could be surrounded by many friends and having “fun” and still feel a void that friends, alcohol, or parties could never fill.

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Years went by and changes came, I got tired of doing the same thing over and over again. God was ready to work with my heart by then. I remember starting to sing a song that was in my mind for a long time when I was alone. I had heard this song at my high school graduation years before I started singing it and it had stuck in my head. The high school graduation was a Catholic mass, so, this was a song of praise to the Lord. I did not know about praise or God being moved in praise. My mind would always go back to that song. So, I kept singing it when alone. Now I see that God was doing it all for me. I did not even know how powerful His praise could be. So, several years in this bad situation I would open my catholic school bible and ask God to lead me to what he wanted to tell me. If he was real? This was 3 different times in 3 different years. The page that would always come up in this old bible, never used, and never marked was:

DEUTERONOMY+18-10-14Deuteronomy 18: 10-14:   “No one among you is to sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, practice divination, tell fortunes, interpret omens, practice sorcery, cast spells, consult a medium or a spiritist, or inquire of the dead. Everyone who does these acts is detestable to the Lord, and the Lord your God is driving out the nations before you because of these detestable acts. You must be blameless before the Lord your God. Though these nations you are about to drive out listen to fortune-tellers and diviners, the Lord your God has not permitted you to do this.”

The third year, the third time, trust me, I freaked out and I definitely got the message. That same day I decided to trashed thousands of dollars in witchcraft books and collectable tarot cards. I never looked back. I did not start reading the bible right away, but I still was starting to see changes in my life. God, year after year, was working on the life he wanted me to live, not the one I was living. One night after 3 years without a special person in my life, I prayed to God. I decided to scream because I was so angry at him. I told him that deep down inside I had always been a good girl and that it was time, I deserved that good guy that would never let me down. That same night because of a really bad experience with a girl at church my “especial guy” decided to ask God in prayer for a girl that had nothing to do with church. That night I met my husband. We have been together ever since. His family was the one to open the door to know the love of God. I thank God every day for his way to love us even when we don’t know the power of his love in our lives. He keeps seeking us. It’s our wrong attitude and decisions that keep pushing Him away. Choose to put him first by talking to God like if he was sitting next to you. Apologize for whatever wrong you may have done and invite Him into your life. Oh the beauty you can experience at his feet will surpass anything lived up to now.

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Please, pray with me today:

Thank you, God for truth being spoken to our hearts.

Thank you, Jesus for taking away our heart of stone and giving us a new heart of flesh ready to receive a new spirit in us.

Thank you for your wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, revealed each day to our hearts.

Thank you for renewing our strength and our love to bless others and bring love to those who need it.

In Jesus name. Amen.

God loves you and so do I.

Why grace?

Why not?

Grace is Jesus meeting you in your disaster. Grace is God saving you from a lifetime of mistakes. Grace is the eraser of the bad things you may have done in your past. God’s grace just rearranges your future to be full of hope and expectation. God’s grace forgets your shortcomings and prepares a better version of you. God’s grace transforms every part of your being inside out. God’s grace is so wasted in this world by people choosing the wrong side. God is never asking perfection. God is asking YOU to do your best from where you are standing today. God asks that you start by changing something that you know that is making you sick or is hurting you in any way. How is this possible?  How can God be that simple? Well it is always a work in process. “the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives” (Titus 2:11). God will be changing the worst of you by creating the best person you can be. Sometimes that includes difficult circumstances to learn wisdom, understanding, patience, love and many more great attributes. “grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (2 Peter 2:18). God makes you a believer by the miracles and wonders you begin to see in your life. People start to serve you and help you even when you were not expecting anything. This is the favor of God over your life. God has a better plan for you. God wants you rested, God wants you ready, God wants you set for what He is preparing you for. God prepares you for the call he already gave you. You are not prepared beforehand, you are prepared by walking in faith with his decisions. How can I know the decisions you make are his? Usually He will do the calling through thoughts, bible, or even speak on an audible voice. I have never had the honor of getting an audible voice but know of many faithful servants that have heard God’s voice. How do you know your thoughts are God’s and not yours? Usually you would never think of the option he sets in front of you. The majority of the time God also confirms what he is saying by using another friend or faithful servant showing you exactly the same idea He wants for your life.

Choose God and love Him and respect Him while living your life and being a testimony throughout your life. Never stop saying how amazing and faithful He is so you can testify and continue to grow in your own faith. The most important part of our faith is to testify to everyone what God has done for you. He will continue to transform other lives through the gospel and the miracles and the wonders people begin to believe and experience the power of your testimony. Never stop testifying. Testifying is key.

“I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior.”

My daily morning prayer… Why? Because I want to be a spectator and a facilitator of His amazing grace.

Please pray with me:

Jesus thank you for coming into my heart.

Thank you for taking away what does not represent your kingdom.

May your kingdom come, and your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Transform and renew the world with your love and your amazing grace.

 

Jesus loves you and so do I.