Listen to God, He is faithful!

Our homeschooling journey has been a rollercoaster ride. Why?
I stopped to listen to the suggestion of well intended people above what God was saying. I forgot to stop looking around me and start looking for what my Creator sent me to do.

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God was calling me to homeschool since my first born was not yet in school. I was definitely NOT LISTENING because it meant a lot of work and teaching. Teaching was something I swore I would NEVER DO! I also just kept listening to the voices of men telling me how it could not be done. It was better at the time and easier to listen to them, than that still small voice telling me to Homeschool. I should have learned from that!!! Yet I kept my kids at school. It cost my kid to be brutally bullied at school and beaten by a boy that learned at home that hitting a girl is acceptable.

God and His amazing GRACE surrounded us with amazing people that would help my child channel her emotions and forgive that boy. These wonderful individuals that really spoke life and love into her helped us all through that tuff season.

I ask God to tell us what was next. God showed me how he wanted to homeschool my kids. What did I do again? After a great start with Him as my guide I started to hear the “encouragers” tell me how Abeka was too hard or would be too much or suggestions that I could be doing something more interactive. Did I learn the first time to stick and listened to God, NO!!! This only confused us more and made us doubt our own capabilities to be guided by Holy Spirit in all our academic daily work load. Yes, God needed me doing Abeka because this is how He showed me that He is the one to give us the wisdom, the order, the ability, the excellence, the encouragement, the guidance, the breakthroughs, and the structure we all need to learn as a family.

Today I see how much better it is to listen to our Father in Heaven above other voices. People are always well intended, yet God has His own ways for you and for me. His ways as always meant to edify us. Always trust God’s ways because when He walks with us He is the one to guide and encourage along the way. When God is present everything works out for the best of all that are walking according to His purpose.

In this seasons of life homeschooling is our call to build a home on Jesus firm foundation. His peace is worth every up and down moment of every day. To trust your Father in heaven in the midst of the discouragement and doubts is the key for a better life for everyone involved.

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Relationship and homeschooling

Relationship with Jesus is taking a road of friendship and joy. The way I see this is that when you least expected you are hanging out with Abba and don’t even notice it. I can see beyond my self sufficiency. I can see how much I need Abba now. I need Him to breath, I need Him to think, I need Him to work, I need Him to love, I need Him to laugh, and I also need Him to enjoy everyday.

My kids and I notice Him in everything around us now. We can see Him in a moving car. We can see Him in a homeless person. We can see Him in a sunset or a starry night. We are thanking Him for every opportunity we get to admire His creativity. We are understanding that beyond a friendship with Him is chaos and emptiness. We are understanding that letting go of Abba’s hand means to conform to a world that does not know how to love. Abba is love. We need His love and daily dosage of guidance to live.

I am thankful for every step He has turn in my ways through my life to make me start our homeschool process. Sometimes I just don’t know why He would ask this of me. Many times I am so thankful for the opportunity to see my kids flourish into very capable young girls. I get to teach them how to not only study but be part of a team daily to get stuff done.

I am thankful Abba has been transforming my mind for a long time now to be able to see the blessing in the chaos. I can see how at the end of the day He is the one to organize my schedule perfectly and make me feel as a Super mom. I know that I could never do this without my beautiful loving kids. They are the light of our house. They teach me joy daily. I know, I sure need it, hey! Who does not? Thank You Jesus. 💕

If we let go and let God take the reigns, life becomes fun. Even when you could never imagine yourself having the strength or the patience God is the one to do it all. I know that without Abba I am nothing. He is my patience, He is my reminder, He is my counselor, He is my helper, and so much more.

Pray with me, please…

Abba let me seek you every day with all my heart. Transform my ways to your ways.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Worthy is the blood of the lamb

Good Friday should be a day of remembering what our God did for us in Egypt with the blood of a lamb on door posts. How death passed-over all the Israelites homes only killing the first borns of the Egyptians. Just an example of what was to come through the blood of Jesus.

The blood of the lamb was the start of freedom from slavery in Egypt for the Israelites. So many centuries ago and we are still debating about it. We are honored to know that the God of miracles, signs, and wonders has always wanted to let us know, how much He loves His people. God was willing to kill innocent children to let His people GO. A God of justice and righteousness was willing to shed blood for every soul that He would call His people.

To this day I can see this God that seeks my attention and affection every hour of every day. My soul feels the tug to seek Him and praise Him as well. The love that He gives me to remain in overflow can only come from that secret place that I seek with all my heart. My heart is expectant always!

What about yours?

Matthew 7:7 Seek and you will find…

In 2000 my angel encounter

Thank you, Abba, for your revelation. Thank You, Abba, for the Spirit of truth. Thank you, Abba, because you keep teaching how you loved me before the foundations of the earth (Ephesians). You keep teaching me that your love is an everlasting love (Isaiah). I keep seeing your fingerprints in so many difficult situations in my past. You always knew who I was and were I would falter and You, Abba, always gives us a way out. What an amazing way out you gave me at one time. Please treat everyone with love and respect at all times. Please be aware that we can encounter angels and not know it (Hebrew 13:2). I experienced this encounter when I was only 19 years old.

Yes, I was raised in a Catholic household, but our faith was just based on praying the Father’s prayer every night. A long time ago I started loving the occult and horror movies.  I was the one to invite all the girls for a slumber party and to have a Halloween night of horror movies. All my friends would say that I was so into the dark-side that it was freaky. I met friends that set me in a darker path to witchcraft and divination. The rabbit hole was very deep and easy to keep going and going not noticing how dark the path was getting. This was the worst time of my life almost all my relationships were toxic because I was toxic. I was full of so much hatred from my past I had no value for myself or anyone around me. I am sure the time spent going deeper into these practices made everything aggravate to the point of constant car crashes, toxic love life, self-hatred, suicidal thoughts, and so much more. Young and stupid as my husband says. I say God has a plan for everything that he permits in our lifetime. Everything that has been used to damage my faith in any way I can now say God is using it as a testimony to break free another life from despair. I know what it is like to walk in despair and no one present me to Jesus. God knows who to call that will be so intertwine with others needs that will never say no to save another soul from the pit, like he saved mine.

At this time in my walk of life, I worked at a bookstore. It was a tiny store and in the tourism area, so it was not that popular. I got to read a lot, especially on Sundays. I remember a Sunday afternoon, I was bored and wanted to find another book to read, this day I considered opening a book that was about Satanism. Told you! The rabbit hole was getting deeper and deeper into the dark-side. At that same moment that I was going to open the book a customer comes in. This customer was a very big man, blond, blue eyes, so perfectly looking. He spoke English and said that he was a Mormon Pastor from Roosevelt Roads (or so he explained). Well one thing led to another he kept talking to me about his ministry in Puerto Rico at the base, we laugh and joked a bit in the conversation. He was mesmerizing and so incredibly authentic. I had never met a man so poised and well dress and this nice. After he stop talking, he went to look at some books. He bought just one pretty quickly after the conversation. Then said thank you and left, he also had left the book on the counter. As I see it, I take the book and go after him to give it to him and he said: “No, that book is for you, you are light so don’t read what you were going to read, read this instead and let your light shine.” As soon as I see the title of the book, I had in my hand a King James Holy Bible. I was a bit unsettled, but I felt especial at the same time for this man saw something in me I could not see. This man represented the love of Abba in a time I could not begin to comprehend it. I tried to read the bible but I did not understand it so I did not persist. When I originally chose to read the satanic book, I had already felt a lot of discomfort regarding that decision. I did not open it, not even to just look over it. As soon as I was going to start reading it this man arrived. He was so mesmerizing I could not read. I remember He took all my attention away from the book as soon as he entered the book store. To have such a deep encounter with someone just made me automatically put the Satanic book back and started to read the Holy Bible the guy left. The gentleman wrote a message in the bible that repeated what he had said, to stay in the light. I am sure with all my heart that perfect looking man was an angel of God. Oh my God! I think it could have been Archangel Michael (He is also blond and has blue eyes.) We will never know who this man was but I know my Abba Father in heaven sent him to avoid me going way too deep into the darkness I was sinking myself into.

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Psalm 91: 11-12 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

“Thank you Jesus for all the times you use your angels to keep us from stumbling. Thank you Abba for your everlasting love. Thank you because your love, your trust, your truth never wavers. Thank you Abba for being the light of the world. I am so thankful I had to PRAISE.”

Jesus saved me and made me a new creation, the old is gone and the new is amazing. I was actually remembering the time I always had something horrible happening like panic attacks, anxiety, depression, hate, suicidal thoughts, or fear. I was always feeling something bad was about to happen as soon as everything got quiet and nice. I am so thankful for peace that surpasses all understanding. I thank God for covering my thoughts with His thoughts, my needs with His needs, my love with His love, my dreams completely align to his will. I thank the Lord for peace that surpasses all understanding. To have peace in my mind is such freedom. For someone thinking all the time: “what is the point of this life? I don’t see anything of meaning in my life.” “The holy bible is just a fairy tale invented by men.” Oh my God I could go on with all the suicidal thoughts, but no, thank you. I have a new mind now, as Paul says in the New Testament “we have the mind of Christ.” I can say for sure that we can have it if we choose to sow into our faith, walking, to own it.

May God bring you the hunger for His word and the truth of His salvation.

If you have never accepted to have a relationship with Jesus, I can tell you how to start.

Repeat with me:

Jesus, I invite you into my heart, make your home inside of me. I repent of all of my sins, I want to be your servant today and always. In Jesus name. Amen.

If you did accept Jesus for the first time, try to find a bible study group to further your relationship with Him. If you can’t because you are in a part of the world it is not possible, don’t worry that God will give you the knowledge and the wisdom to understand (ask Jesus for revelation and truth), and ofcourse, buy yourself a Bible. If you can’t please contact me I will find a way to get you one ASAP.

May God bless you with His abundance of grace, love, and favor in your walk with Him.

Intimate letter to Abba

Abba I am here writing to You to tell you how impressed we are by your masterpiece. To look at your dusk and to look at you dawn, and its majestic colors just fills our hearts with joy. The time spent in prayer, the time spent in reading your word has transformed our thinking. My family is blessed to know you and to seek you daily. Can’t wait to see the fruits in everyone’s intimate relationship with you.

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This season I started to notice how my heart is seeking to love you and to thank you for everything you do daily for our family and our walk of faith. Abba you picked me before the world was created. Lord you knew me from the time I was being formed in my mother’s wound. Even when my mother and my father considered terminating my life you had called me and had a wonderful plan for my life (Isaiah 49:1).

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You say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and even before I knew who my Father is, You covered me under your wings (Isaiah 54:17). My mother and my father had to cancel the abortion because You my Abba had better plans for your servant (Psalm 27:10). Thank you, Father that I now see what is to have a thankful heart. I feel in my inner most being to thank you every day that no matter what my parents did, I was loved by my Father in heaven way before I was conceived (Isaiah 54:8). Now at your feet meditating on your word and your truth I can see all the times you chose a better life for me. Thank you Abba for the truth revealed at your feet (Isaiah 48:17).

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I moved to Las Vegas, Nevada when I was young and stupid and made many poor choices and you still covered me under your wings (Psalm 91:1). I still see all the times you called me to align my life with your purpose for my life and I just was too blind to see beyond my self-pity. Thank you for bringing my life out of the pit of depression, anxiety, loneliness, and chaos (Psalm 103:4). Nobody knew how deeply hurt I was, my heart was so numb. I can see now how hurt people keep hurting others around them without even noticing it (Proverbs 17:22). I remember the day I left the front door open to my apartment, I lived next to the gate where everyone enters and leaves the community daily. I slept with that door open all night long and my purse was next to the front door. Nothing happened! Why? You Abba Father, You covered me and kept me safe (Proverbs 18:10 CJB). I remember the day “my dream guy” asked me to get married in a drive by church in Las Vegas and you placed in my heart’s understanding “this is not the time, the place, or the guy.” Abba I can see it now, you showed up every time I needed you, even in the worst choices I made, you were there to carry me back to your side (Isaiah 43:19). Deep down inside all I wanted was real love and acceptance that this world was unable to give me. I always seemed to know that I needed to pray and I did, even in my worst situations I prayed, I knew having you in my life was necessary. All that time praying without even knowing how to speak to you, you listened and you took care of me. First of all thank you for helping me find You so I could be healed and transformed through the love of family. I found it Abba, thank you because I found the love of my life, I found the family that filled every void I carried for so long, thank you Abba. I found the people that deserve all my time and energy to build them up to understand that they are loved, not by me alone, but by You. You are the Alpha and the Omega. You are omnipresent, omniscient, the God who heals, the God who gives peace that surpasses all earthly understanding, You are the Holy One, You are the creator, You are the ultimate creative genius on earth and in the heavens.

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Lord, I want to be your servant until my last breath. I wish to ask you before I go:

Did I helped woke up the souls that you needed to be awaken so the truth of your love and your ways would disperse across the world?

Was I your living walking testimony each and every day?

Did I do what you sent me to do in this time on earth?

Did I feed enough lives?

Please pray with me today,

Thank you, Father for a new day where I take a new breath and I am able to listen to your birds sing, I can see your butterflies, I can see your dawn, I can see your beautiful skies, I can see your care, your love for me and my family. Here I am Father, a new day awaits, may I be able to listen to your still voice, your servant awaits. Amen.

In Jesus name we pray.

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