Thank you, Abba, for your revelation. Thank You, Abba, for the Spirit of truth. Thank you, Abba, because you keep teaching how you loved me before the foundations of the earth (Ephesians). You keep teaching me that your love is an everlasting love (Isaiah). I keep seeing your fingerprints in so many difficult situations in my past. You always knew who I was and were I would falter and You, Abba, always gives us a way out. What an amazing way out you gave me at one time. Please treat everyone with love and respect at all times. Please be aware that we can encounter angels and not know it (Hebrew 13:2). I experienced this encounter when I was only 19 years old.
Yes, I was raised in a Catholic household, but our faith was just based on praying the Father’s prayer every night. A long time ago I started loving the occult and horror movies. I was the one to invite all the girls for a slumber party and to have a Halloween night of horror movies. All my friends would say that I was so into the dark-side that it was freaky. I met friends that set me in a darker path to witchcraft and divination. The rabbit hole was very deep and easy to keep going and going not noticing how dark the path was getting. This was the worst time of my life almost all my relationships were toxic because I was toxic. I was full of so much hatred from my past I had no value for myself or anyone around me. I am sure the time spent going deeper into these practices made everything aggravate to the point of constant car crashes, toxic love life, self-hatred, suicidal thoughts, and so much more. Young and stupid as my husband says. I say God has a plan for everything that he permits in our lifetime. Everything that has been used to damage my faith in any way I can now say God is using it as a testimony to break free another life from despair. I know what it is like to walk in despair and no one present me to Jesus. God knows who to call that will be so intertwine with others needs that will never say no to save another soul from the pit, like he saved mine.
At this time in my walk of life, I worked at a bookstore. It was a tiny store and in the tourism area, so it was not that popular. I got to read a lot, especially on Sundays. I remember a Sunday afternoon, I was bored and wanted to find another book to read, this day I considered opening a book that was about Satanism. Told you! The rabbit hole was getting deeper and deeper into the dark-side. At that same moment that I was going to open the book a customer comes in. This customer was a very big man, blond, blue eyes, so perfectly looking. He spoke English and said that he was a Mormon Pastor from Roosevelt Roads (or so he explained). Well one thing led to another he kept talking to me about his ministry in Puerto Rico at the base, we laugh and joked a bit in the conversation. He was mesmerizing and so incredibly authentic. I had never met a man so poised and well dress and this nice. After he stop talking, he went to look at some books. He bought just one pretty quickly after the conversation. Then said thank you and left, he also had left the book on the counter. As I see it, I take the book and go after him to give it to him and he said: “No, that book is for you, you are light so don’t read what you were going to read, read this instead and let your light shine.” As soon as I see the title of the book, I had in my hand a King James Holy Bible. I was a bit unsettled, but I felt especial at the same time for this man saw something in me I could not see. This man represented the love of Abba in a time I could not begin to comprehend it. I tried to read the bible but I did not understand it so I did not persist. When I originally chose to read the satanic book, I had already felt a lot of discomfort regarding that decision. I did not open it, not even to just look over it. As soon as I was going to start reading it this man arrived. He was so mesmerizing I could not read. I remember He took all my attention away from the book as soon as he entered the book store. To have such a deep encounter with someone just made me automatically put the Satanic book back and started to read the Holy Bible the guy left. The gentleman wrote a message in the bible that repeated what he had said, to stay in the light. I am sure with all my heart that perfect looking man was an angel of God. Oh my God! I think it could have been Archangel Michael (He is also blond and has blue eyes.) We will never know who this man was but I know my Abba Father in heaven sent him to avoid me going way too deep into the darkness I was sinking myself into.
Psalm 91: 11-12 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
“Thank you Jesus for all the times you use your angels to keep us from stumbling. Thank you Abba for your everlasting love. Thank you because your love, your trust, your truth never wavers. Thank you Abba for being the light of the world. I am so thankful I had to PRAISE.”
Jesus saved me and made me a new creation, the old is gone and the new is amazing. I was actually remembering the time I always had something horrible happening like panic attacks, anxiety, depression, hate, suicidal thoughts, or fear. I was always feeling something bad was about to happen as soon as everything got quiet and nice. I am so thankful for peace that surpasses all understanding. I thank God for covering my thoughts with His thoughts, my needs with His needs, my love with His love, my dreams completely align to his will. I thank the Lord for peace that surpasses all understanding. To have peace in my mind is such freedom. For someone thinking all the time: “what is the point of this life? I don’t see anything of meaning in my life.” “The holy bible is just a fairy tale invented by men.” Oh my God I could go on with all the suicidal thoughts, but no, thank you. I have a new mind now, as Paul says in the New Testament “we have the mind of Christ.” I can say for sure that we can have it if we choose to sow into our faith, walking, to own it.
May God bring you the hunger for His word and the truth of His salvation.
If you have never accepted to have a relationship with Jesus, I can tell you how to start.
Repeat with me:
Jesus, I invite you into my heart, make your home inside of me. I repent of all of my sins, I want to be your servant today and always. In Jesus name. Amen.
If you did accept Jesus for the first time, try to find a bible study group to further your relationship with Him. If you can’t because you are in a part of the world it is not possible, don’t worry that God will give you the knowledge and the wisdom to understand (ask Jesus for revelation and truth), and ofcourse, buy yourself a Bible. If you can’t please contact me I will find a way to get you one ASAP.
May God bless you with His abundance of grace, love, and favor in your walk with Him.