Our homeschooling journey has been a rollercoaster ride. Why? I stopped to listen to the suggestion of well intended people above what God was saying. I forgot to stop looking around me and start looking for what my Creator sent me to do.
God was calling me to homeschool since my first born was not yet in school. I was definitely NOT LISTENING because it meant a lot of work and teaching. Teaching was something I swore I would NEVER DO! I also just kept listening to the voices of men telling me how it could not be done. It was better at the time and easier to listen to them, than that still small voice telling me to Homeschool. I should have learned from that!!! Yet I kept my kids at school. It cost my kid to be brutally bullied at school and beaten by a boy that learned at home that hitting a girl is acceptable.
God and His amazing GRACE surrounded us with amazing people that would help my child channel her emotions and forgive that boy. These wonderful individuals that really spoke life and love into her helped us all through that tuff season.
I ask God to tell us what was next. God showed me how he wanted to homeschool my kids. What did I do again? After a great start with Him as my guide I started to hear the “encouragers” tell me how Abeka was too hard or would be too much or suggestions that I could be doing something more interactive. Did I learn the first time to stick and listened to God, NO!!! This only confused us more and made us doubt our own capabilities to be guided by Holy Spirit in all our academic daily work load. Yes, God needed me doing Abeka because this is how He showed me that He is the one to give us the wisdom, the order, the ability, the excellence, the encouragement, the guidance, the breakthroughs, and the structure we all need to learn as a family.
Today I see how much better it is to listen to our Father in Heaven above other voices. People are always well intended, yet God has His own ways for you and for me. His ways as always meant to edify us. Always trust God’s ways because when He walks with us He is the one to guide and encourage along the way. When God is present everything works out for the best of all that are walking according to His purpose.
In this seasons of life homeschooling is our call to build a home on Jesus firm foundation. His peace is worth every up and down moment of every day. To trust your Father in heaven in the midst of the discouragement and doubts is the key for a better life for everyone involved.
Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.
I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11 ESV
This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.
Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.
Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.
Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.
On December 25 2005 , I felt so depressed, so alone,and so tired from all the toxic relationships I had permitted myself to have for years. This day was a fork on the road, I felt it was enough of TOXIC and I decided to express my anger to God. I told God: “I deserved good people in my life since I was a good child.” I kept saying some really rough words to God in my anger and frustration. I was crying and really pleading to be heard.
That same night I wrote a friendly e-mail to five different people men and women on a “social media platform.” It was actually a Blogging/Messenger website. I saw their stories, blogs, pictures and decided to see who seem to walk towards love and family. It was decided, I needed new positive people in my life. Amazing enough, that same night, out of all the people I contacted, only one answered, MY NOW HUSBAND OF 13 years.
Something cool about this testimony is that my husband that same day did the same prayer in a very different way from His side of the world.
Through testimonies like this one Jesus can make it possible for you to experience this truth that sets us free from unbelief.
🙏Let me pray for you…
May the Lord open the way to meet that God fearing person in your life that will bring love, transformation, faith, hope, and peace. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.