Plans the Lord has are way better than our own plans.

I lived in misery, wanting to die (suicidal thoughts every day all my teen years and early twenties). I could not think of my original dream of having a big family because of all the horrible news that the world had to offer. I said to myself: “why bring a child into this fallen world?” I said: “why would I let them suffer as I also suffered.” So in my mind there was no hope for a future in this chaotic world for many years. Yet, JESUS had a better plan for my life all along! Wow and what a plan to change my mind!!! (Blessings that we do not deserve.)

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

This bible verse comes to life today as I acknowledge how The Lord used our first born daughter to bring us together as a family. God brought hope and a future. If it was for me and my husband we would not have lasted and made our matrimony possible. We were too immature and all about video games and having fun with our friends.

Our Father’s (God’s) plans of gifting us the blessing of our first born re-routed our lives in such a profound way. This morning, as I meditate on His promise, I am so in awe remembering this moment that started to change everything. His promises (written in the Holy Bible) supersede everything we could choose for our own lives. As I see my first born bloom into such a wonderful young lady, full of faith and wisdom from above is such a gift from heaven. All by His surpassing grace and not bay anything her father and I could have built in her. Yes, this world is different, but so are we. We empower her with love, giving her a voice, respect, and honor while we all learn to WAIT ON THE LORD for His goodness in the midst of the ups and the downs this life has to offer.

Whenever we miss the mark of love, we apologize and try again with all our hearts. No one is perfect and bringing baggage into our homes is normal. This is why God’s grace helps us be healed and restored to do it better than our own parents. We are far away from perfect but everyday praying for access to Jesus perfect love that cast out all fear from our midst. 🥰 His promises never return void.☀️ What a hope I can teach my children in the midst of a discouraging world.

Trust = walking on water = courage. Its never easy, this is faith… Trusting Jesus even when you can’t see the outcome because He will prove His faithfulness by guarding us in the midst of the fear, doubt, and the uncertainty.